Whom I met in my dreams
POSTED AT 06:47 AM in Dreams, Boylablues

subjunctive

And my alarm rang just as he was about to... and I was snapped back to consciousness. Fuck that. :|

I never thought it would be possible to fall in love with a guy you meet in your dreams. As in dreams, DREAMS, the royal road to consciousness, the one which occurs in the REM stage, or whichever shit. The thing with that, I can't quite figure out what he looked like. Dreams are supposed to be blurry.

The abnormal thing, I'm in love with the guy. I feel so much love enough to distract me from my infatuation with cousin.

I know, I'm neurotic.

Isa itong malaking kaululan. Pagka-shower ko makakalimutan ko na to.

 

Feeling: JADED, overwhelmed

Something disturbing
POSTED AT 02:13 PM in Just Sharing

subjunctive

I love my tracker.

Someone has fancied a visit in this site and stayed for almost 5 hours. I just hope it isn't my ex.

300+ offsets. Stalker much?

I'm officially on a sembreak.
POSTED AT 02:34 AM

scarlet_hue

You know Tabbie, I contemplated on deleting you. I almost clicked the left mouse button with the cursor hovering on the delete option in the control panel. I felt that we are already so disconnected now that I thought it was only appropriate to finally let you rest. But then I remembered the 6 years we've gone through together... you have been with me ever since the day I crossed the threshold of College up until the day I passed the board exams. You were there to bear witness to my pain, frustrations and even the small things that made me happy. But lately, i've been too busy to update you with my life. I was so uninspired to blog these days and that it drove me to the point where I thought I didn't need you anymore. Then I suddenly envisioned life without you and I realized that I couldn't let you go. You're like a friend I can't physically see but always there in the sidelines, cheering for me and eager for the latest news about me. It was very selfish of me to have even thought of erasing you. For that, i'm sorry. I'll make up to you by trying to write more often. I want to reconnect with you again, tabbie.

So now, as a celebration of our reconnection, I present to you... an entry.

Okay, let's get this started.

***

I'm finally on sembreak, whew! 6 months of hard work has finally paid off. I passed all of my subjects outright and I didn't have to worry about taking removal exams nor the promotion boards. I'm so happy! Thank you Bro, I couldn't have done it without your divine assistance. :D

And did I already mention I was exempted to take the Final exam for Biochem? :D

I never expected this to happen because Biochem is like one of the most hard knockin' subjects in the first year curriculum... and never would've I guessed i'd end it with a grade of 1.50. Woohoo! My prayers were answered. Now I know that God really listens to those who want to be heard.

I feel bad for my other classmates though. A lot of them were "weeded" out (as higher years succinctly coin it) and from the original population of 65, section F is down to 38. I blame it on the very rushed environment in FEU. There was really no room for adjustment and they already bombed us with numerous shifting exams since day 1. But I do understand why the academe is doing that, the reason is pretty simple. We're already pursuing a doctorate degree and as aspiring doctors we are expected to handle things with grace and maturity even under the bout of stress. As one of my professors told us, a doctor's life is never stress-free. So as early as now, they're training us to work under pressure because the strain bought about working in a hospital is never a joke. I should know, having worked for more than 5 months inside one. So yeah, i'm gonna have a tough road ahead, but I chose this and i'm standing by it until the end. 

Some people who got affected by the "weeding" are close friends of mine. I'm sad about what happened... as in reeeaally sad. But I am as powerless as they are and I can only dust my knees, get up and move on. I have myself to think about too. I pray that God blesses them on whatever they're planning to do after this.

That's about it regarding my scholastic affairs. Let's talk about the more trivial but fun (?) events that happened to me lately.

***

I just discovered that I'm one of the most googled people in our classroom. Really, I have no idea why. Two people have already admitted on doing so, and i hope i don't get any more confessions soon. The top reason me and my friends could think of is that my classmates are having a hard time believing that I didn't graduate as Cum Laude or with honors at least. Do I look like a liar? Haha! Well, slight lang. Uhm, I feel kinda awkward about it but i'm not mad. If you guys are reading this right now, i just wanna say that i'm more boring than a slice of white loaf bread and I hope you don't find any incriminating stuff about me (though i couldn't think of any). Oh and by the way, I got my premed degree from MCU, not UST.

Speaking of MCU, i went back there last friday and was mildly amused with the structural changes it has undergone since I graduated. However, i'm still as dissatisfied as ever with their administration. That new registrar is really flipping my bitch switch. I kinda missed the old one tuloy.

Oh and I finally got my yearbook. It looks very nice, even with typographical errors and all. Plus the testimony under my picture was really sweet. Thanks Dean, i know you're the one who composed that.

***

About my love life? Hmm.. I don't want to go to details and all I can say is that he's not the guy I thought he was. It was fortunate that I have a good head on my shoulders. My mom certainly didn't raise a fool, for sure! ;D

I feel bad for Girl 2 though (You know her). She was just a victim of a disaster called Jerk. Though sometimes I couldn't help but feel somehow responsible for her heartache. I don't know how to console her, and the only thing I could do for her is to wish her peace of mind and strength to overcome the pain. And as for that guy, i pray that he gets what is due to him. The asshole. D:<

***

I'm worried about my dad's health these days. The signs of aging are showing up and they definitely don't bring good news. First, his gouty arthritis have struck again. He was briefly hospitalized for it because he couldn't walk and it's causing too much pain. Next is his teeth. He just woke up one day with a swollen face and gums so we rushed him to a dentist to have his molars extracted. Poor dad. He couldn't eat any solid food and he still needs to undergo another dental operation to relieve him of the pain. I feel so sad about this. In my eyes, he's the epitome of power in our house and I grew up looking up to him as some kind of superman. But now, seeing him in a frail and crumbled state makes me weak in the knees and sick to my stomach. But this gives me all the more reason to become a doctor as soon as possible. I still want to repay him for the love and support he has given me all my life. He may have been a strict disciplinarian, but he's still my Dad and I love him. 

 

That's about it for now. I feel refreshed. I missed blogging like this.

 

Later!

 

P.S. I can't help but post this. Cobalt and Aurum is the cutest couple ever~!

Listening to: Eraserheads - Sa tuwing umuulan at kapiling ka
Feeling: complacent

What to post... what to post... hmmm
POSTED AT 04:09 PM in ramblings/rantings/sentimiento

orekimok

Hello everyone, I've come out from one of my successful hiatus (finally!). I haven't touched this blog for half-a-year. How are things here lately? It looks like everyone is dead... oh my ghulay...

Maintaining a blog is hard nowadays... well, for me of course. There are some people are comfortable doing it. They are gifted ones with the power of words and a bunch of ideas in my mind put together to form a great post, so great that everyone steals them and claims the stolen entries as theirs (okay, that's the sad part) but it doesn't stop most authors to make astounding entries.

With the proliferation of this so-called hype called Facebook, it made matters worse. I got to the point that I never responded to game requests because I'm too busy with my FarmVille, Mafia Wars and Vampire Wars. But after the great flood, thanks to Typhoon Ondoy, I got back to my senses that I should not dependent to those games.

So... what should I post? Posting for a nerdy introduction sounds bland.

Maybe I'll save my words for later, when the inspiration strikes...

 

Good day.

after a few tiring months... (PART II)
POSTED AT 08:33 PM

attribbidda

 So there, I stayed for a month at the Institute, where I learned of many things...

This is me, looking busy. hahahaha!!!

(And yes, those curls are REAL)

And here I am looking at a bacterial smear.

(This was before I had my locks curled)

I learned how to perform various tests for isolation of clinically significant microbes:

This is a set of manual biochemical test for bacteria.

(From L to R: Urease, LIA, TSI, Citrate and SIM)

Breaker: Miss Abigail, please describe the various reactions (practice lang!) hehe

This is Shigella flexnerii.

(As seen on Mac Conkey Agar)

Say hello to Vibrio cholerae.

(As seen on TCBS agar.)

And of course, I also found new friends and colleagues...

Here's sweet Miss Abby, who I learned to love like a sister.

And naughty Miss Rose, who's been a Registered Medical Technologist long before I was born.

I really had soo much fun, and I also learned a lot of things, and knowing that Lady Luck is on my side, I can only think of one thing:

"Thank You soo Much, Papa Jesus!"

Reading: Microbiology SOP :)
Listening to: As I Lay Me Down - Sophie B. Hawkins
Feeling: happy happy

1st day makes me anxious
POSTED AT 01:00 PM in School Drama

subjunctive

It's first day of classes on the 11th and I am forced to say hello to Psychometrics (lab), BMA2 (lab&lec), World Lit, Bio-organic Chem, and Social Psychology. I'm kind of excited for everything, most especially for World Lit which happens to be one of the lightest in the bunch. And unbelievably, I am excited for Bio-chem, given the reality that I hated Chem since I found out how it is taught in college.

Science subjects always make me want to ponder why I chose science over art. I could have taken AB instead of BS and I could have been doing a lot better now.

I never understood why new things excite me. And after they're not new anymore, I get lazy and unmotivated.

And I must say, Channing Tatum is hot.

 

As always
POSTED AT 01:35 PM in Just Sharing

subjunctive

Habit ko na talaga ang basa-basahin ang mga nakaraan kong mga blogs. Nakaka-miss nga, eh. Feeling ko kasi, hindi na ko makulit. Mas seyoso na ako ngayon, I think.

Kailangang lumandi.

after a few tiring months...
POSTED AT 12:20 PM

attribbidda

 Well, let me tell you the story of how it all began...

                         The Medical Technology board examinations were conducted in the cities of Manila, Davao, Cebu and Baguio last September 5 and 6, 2009. Yours truly was assigned and accepted at the 5th floor of MLQU, room 514 seat number 11. She and some of her classmates were assigned in the same room, and so was together during the exams.

                          September 5 was the first day of the licensure exams. The subjects were Clinical Chemistry, Microbiology / Parasitology and Clinical Microscopy (Urinalysis and other body fluids). The exams went by without unusual occurences, except for the fact that she actually fell asleep for the better part of 15 minutes in each and every exam (due to an unwanted side-effect of a certain memory enhancer churva!).

                          September 6 happened to be a Sunday, and the subjects were Hematology, Blood Banking / Serology and Histopathologic Techniques and Medical Technology Laws, Ethics. Nothing unusual happened... to me. But a schoolmate was just so unlucky that he was late for a mere 10 minutes, and his examination was cancelled.  So there. All that was left of me was a broken pencil (broken by me, for good luck ~an urban legend says that if you want to have good luck on board exams, break the pencil you used right after!)

                         I actually bought a set of 3 Mongol pencils, and I used only one. I gave the other two to charity (to public elementary school students, who will, one day, take an examination like mine.)         

                            A few days (which actually felt like years to me) later, a very excited former co-intern of mine sent me this text message: "Sa lahat po ng nag-pray for me, maraming salamat po! ~Edelene Khae Torres, RMT." I was flabbergasted because I knew the results were to be released on September 10! I then excitedly asked her if she saw my name on the much-awaited list, and she said yes. Silly me forgot the power of technology, and the results were already released on the website on the night of September 9!

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That's ME, number 509.

                           Anyways, I'm just sooo glad I passed. What's more? BFF sent me this text message:

"Kristine Bernadette Mendoza, RMT. Naks, I'm soo proud."

                            That really made my day. *wipes tears*

                           So there. After all important people have been informed of the good news, Mom set me to work. She made me clean up all the reviewers which have been occupying a better half of my bed for almost two months, blah blah blah...

FAST FORWARD TO A FEW DAYS LATER:

                          I am now a trainee at St. Paul's Hospital, a target of mine ever since I was a student. The catch? IT'S A FEW EFFIN' STEPS AWAY FROM HOME! Isn't that suh-weet? I get to go and eat lunch at home. Plus, I was tied to an 8am to 5pm, Monday-Friday schedule, which really made my day. The staff oriented me on how to use the various machines, the ECG, the CBC machine, the Chemistry machine. I am just soo happy.

                          Now, little did I know that Papa Jesus really did had plans for me. A staff was bound to undergo a Microbiology training program at the Research Institute for Tropical Medicine. This staff, Ma'am Thet, was actually having second thoughts about it. She asked me once about what section I really wanted to specialize in, and I told her that I wanted to specialize in Microbiology. She then excitedly asked me if I wanted to undergo the training, because she had other plans, and I said yes. So she hurried to the Medical Director, and said that I will take her slot. The Medical Director said yes, and poof! I was now bound for training.

This is my room assignment at the Residence Hall.

And these are my keys.

                             Can you believe it? MY KEYS. And living quite far from home? Amazing, neh? Plus, I never heard anything derogatory from my very protective Mother about me going away for an almost entire month.

To be continued...

Feeling: tired and happy