hmm..
POSTED AT 11:48 PM

Blacksword

You know what?

I really need to use this blog again. 

Ever since I got be stuck here in our house, I've never had anything serious to think about. And doing house chores are boring. Especially dishwashing. Standing in front of the sink for an hour doing repetitive movements isn't exactly my way of having fun. So, in order to pass time, I developed this habit of daydreaming about my fantasies, or thinking about things that most people don't have time to think about. Like.. thinking about the past. Wondering what would happen if I had done things differently back then. Daydreaming about taking over the country, or being in a rock band and stuff. Moaning about embarrasing memories. And sometimes, thinking about the future and what I'm going to do in order to save myself from this.. predicament. That's what I do whenever I wash the dishes. 

Anyway, one of the things that I realized in one of my daydreaming sessions was that my memory was getting hazy. There were some memories of mine that I don't remember when they exactly took place. Also, I realized that I don't remember much during the recently past years. There were some noteworthy events, but I don't exactly remember how my days went. Yeah, so the past few years were uneventful, but I don't want to forget about the little stuff. I don't want to grow old and not be able to know or remember how my years had went. I want to be able to tell tales about my youth, about how I grew up, and hopefully, about how I survived the problems that I'm facing right now. 

And then I realized that the answer already existed. It was this blog. I already had a lot of memories stored here, so why not continue the chain? To tell the truth, the original purpose of this blog was for me to put in my own thoughts/rants/raves/etc. The past few months, however, I never experienced or saw anything worthy of writing about. Or probably it was because I lost the motivation to write about anything. Whatever the reason is, I was still inactive. Hence the very, very long post gap. 

Hopefully, that's going to change. Because from now on, I'll try to write about something everyday. I know I don't have much to write about, but I'll try to at least write about something. Anything, as long as it has something to do with the day. So, at least, I'd have something to look back to when I'm old and wanting to tell my children about something.

Or, at least, to have something to read when I'm bored and/or feeling nostalgic. 

Ciao. 

 

 

Feeling: accomplished

Of schools and hospital visits.
POSTED AT 12:19 AM

Blacksword

I had a lot of fun today. 

Today, my sister and I decided to initiate my long-planned return to formal education, a plan we've been brewing ever since I tried to grow a spine and actually think about my own future (Which was yesterday, I think).

So, my sister woke me up early this morning, in the hope that we'd accomplish all that we're setting forth to do before lunchbreak. Unfortunately, my mom was awake as well, and she had the uncanny ability to make you sit in front of her and listen to her talk about small nothings (and actually make you enjoy listening to it at the same time). Also, both my sister and I were quite unused to the morning rush, due to it being summer and all. So we were moving pretty slow this morning.  And so our attempts to be early birds failed. We managed to leave the house at around 11am, one hour before lunch, the time that we've expected ourselves to be able to return home at. Oh well. 

Anyway, we headed off for a college that I was eyeing for quite a while now. It's a bit near, there were a lot of routes that led to it, so it was very efficient to commute to. When we arrived there, we were surprised to see that the campus was really nice and organized. Even my sister, who came from a decent college, was surprised at the level of efficiency that this particular school exercised. Everything was within reach at every step of the enrollment procedure, which actually started once you entered the gate. Regardless of status, new student or old, you were handed guides on the enrollment procedures, which included practically everything you needed to know. That was a relief; I thought we had to get ourselves lost in a place we were visiting for the first time just to find someone to talk to. In fact, we never had to talk to anybody for info, and yet I was very well informed on what I had to do and the stuff that I had to bring. That's why our stay there was short. Oh wait, there was these two little punks that had the nerve to 'po' me while I was talking with them. I swear, if I see them again, I'm going to chop off their heads and turn them into keychains. I. AM. NOT. OLD. And I don't look old as well. I swear. Sheesh. Anyway, after a quick call to ma, we decided to head towards my sister's soon-to-be med school. 

It only took one quick ride to get to her school, since it was very near to my prospect college. And one quick look at the facade just made me go "woah". If the place that we came from was a model of efficiency, this place that we were standing on was a monument of intimidation. It didn't look like a med school. It looked like a research laboratory that had a hotel lobby for an entrance hall and a posh food court for a canteen. Obviously, they were sending a message to everyone who entered the place: only the best of the best can study here. Makes me marvel at the proverbial balls of steel that my sister had (and which I probably never will have. I mean, her first course was about sticking needles on people and taking their blood, and now she's trying to learn how to go elbow-deep inside people's guts. wtf?!?). Anyway, she toured me around for a bit. Saw a lot of foreigners and pretty doctors, took a quick look at the buildings, and then we were out of there. 

Next stop was the hospital that formerly employed my sis. She just quit a couple of months ago to go to med school, and now she's going after her separation pay. At first, I waited for a bit at the hospital lobby. But then I got bored, and decided to move towards sis just so I could she what she was doing. She saw me and noticed that I was bored. So she took me along while she got her clearance signed. It was pretty exciting and almost seemed like a tour for me (yeah, so it was a hospital. for a non-med-related guy, I don't get too many chances to go around inside one just like that). Anyway, she took me to a lot of the hospital sections and described to me some of them. But after a few signatures, I was again back at the hospital lobby, since she was going to go inside the staff-only places. 'twas pretty boring, plus there was a storm raging just outside the hospital, so the atmosphere wasn't really nice. While I was waiting, I got on that weighing scale that was really calling for me since I sat at the lobby. I am currently 180lbs. Not bad for a fairly tall guy like me. Anyway, after an hour or so, I think, she finished what she was doing. Got the money, took a last look at the place, and then we went out.

So finally, amidst the rain and the wet streets, we got home at around 3pm. I missed my pet cat Bruno (don't ask). She's currently in heat right now, so she always goes out to try and look for male cats to make kittens with. Really annoying. I wish I could get her neutered one day, if only she's not afraid of being taken away from here.

One of my cousins and her husband just left here about a couple of hours ago. They just visited us from out of nowhere, but I'm never surprised whenever they're here since they're one of our relatively frequent visitors. They'll probably sleep over here tomorrow. I really hope they don't. I don't like visitors, even if they were my cousins. Especially if they're sleeping over. It always messes with the comfy feel of the house. Well, I guess they're okay with me, but I hope they don't stay for too long. 

Well, that's it for my day. A bit long for one of my posts, but that's because I had a lot to write about. Even if I did leave out a lot of detail. 

Nothing too profound to spout out right now. That's a good thing.

Oh but there is something to be sad about (for me, at least). One of my fave daily sites is going through tough times right now. I hope they don't close it for good, or else there'd be one less site for me to visit to when I'm online. I don't browse around a lot of sites lately, so the ones that I actually frequent to are pretty special to me. So, again, I hope it doesn't go down. 

And one of my fave guilty-pleasure sites is currently under a DDoS/Virus combo attack. *facepalm.jpg*

And did I mention that there's currently a storm raging right now, just around the corner?

Tough times for everyone, including me. I hope everything turns out fine next month.

Oh well.

Ciao.

 

Feeling: mellow

green goo
POSTED AT 01:04 AM

Blacksword

my head's swirling right now. 

at the moment, I'm drinking my friend james' own home-made custom brew of vodka, what we here call 'green goo'. 

we had no idea how strong our brew was. and unfortunately, we made a whole batch of it yesterday. a whole pitcher. obviously, we never finished it. I mean, we've drunk vodka before, but not like this, LOL. and we've never been dizzy on the first glass. first time for everything, I guess. 

anyway, it was my sister's 21st birthday yesterday. 

had a lot of fun yesterday. 'twas not a big party, but the food was nice. we had some friends come over, but some of them didn't come, unfortunately. oh well, their loss. we had 3 pizzas, lots of junk food, and some softdrinks and our 'goo' on the side. and some of those jawbreakers that arrianne brought. my teeth still hurts from chewing some of them. 

well, since we were just a party of 5, we didn't do much. still, we had lots of fun, at the least. 

I gave my sister a teddy bear as a gift. 

and.. that was it. 

happy birthday, sis :D.

anyway, another long post gap. just when I was declaring my return to blogging, this happens. well, at least it wasn't my fault. my monitor finally broke down last week, and I had to wait 'til tuesday to have it replaced.

yeah, tuesday. 

so.. why did I wait for sunday to post here?

err.. I mean.. c'mon, I practically endured more than a year of using a broken monitor on my pc. I think I deserve a few days of gaming with a decent display, at the least, haha.

well, my determination to chronicle my life still stands.

here's a toast to my blog. cheers. 

now let me finish this glass. I need my green goo fix right now.

ciao!

Feeling: dizzy

current status: bored
POSTED AT 11:18 PM

Blacksword

yep. I'm starting to get bored.

I have a fully-decked gaming rig that I'm very proud of, with a wide selection of games and accessories, plus a relatively fast internet connection. the television's always there. dvd player's also good, with a wide selection of movies. can't really complain about my huge mp3 collection. and I can always read books if I wanted to. 

and I also have my really cute pet cat bruno. and a very happy dog named obama. 

well, thing is, I've been enjoying all those stuff, regularly and without restraint,  for the last two years. I guess that's the reason why I'm really bored.

I can probably go out with my friends, if that's what I really needed to do. but then again, I'm lazy. the only time I get to see them is when they come here themselves. and besides, it only gets interesting when we have money. that's the time when we could do stuff other than talking and shit. that's why I don't really bother with friends that much.

so.. I guess I can't do anything much right now.

the only good thing to come out of this is that my boredom is bad enough to be the motivation that I need to go back to school and do something good for a change. I mean, if it meant having new stuff to try and new things to do, then I'll gladly go and leave this paradise of yawns for a few hours each day.

yeah, that's right. I'll cut my leisure time once school starts. for a change. 

of course, that doesn't mean that I'll stop enjoying my dear gaming rig. no, no, no. 

just lessening it for a bit, ne?

anyway, status update for my future self.

current games: mafia wars on facebook, forumwarz, wh40k dawn of war dark crusade, medieval 2 total war.. aaaaand that's about it. most of my time is spent on the small stuff, like surfing the net, or watching videos/movies, and listening to music. hoping for money to fall from heaven so I can finally exchange my overworked graphics card for a better one. 

current activities: still house chores. mom is becoming increasingly reliant on me for such chores, much to her amusement. another reason why I'm really looking forward to my return to proper education. 

edit: fuck. I forgot fowrchan (misspelled it so an-on won't track me here). FUUUUUUUUUUU-

love life: same old, same old. but at least the remaining days are going fast. hopefully she'll come back. that's what she tells me, and that's what I'm going to believe. 

future: still bleak, but is starting to clear up a little bit.

and.. that's about it.

I hope something exciting comes up tomorrow. please, please. 

ciao.

Feeling: bored. bored. BORED.