big slap
POSTED AT 12:22 AM

Blacksword

I was supposed to write about pRO a few minutes ago. actually I've already typed in a few paragraphs about how less than a week ago I started playing again after a few years, and now I brought a job 50 FS priest up to level 69 (as of now). okay, so I did write about it just now, but that's so you know I did.

anyway I decided to scratch the ragnarok stuff away from this post because, aside from the thing that I did a few hours ago with.. (never mind XD), I just realized that it's already the month of MAY. a few days late, given my sleeping consciousness, but still.. *sigh*

and then suddenly, my imaginary face just got a huge slap from miss reality.

okay, first, a bit of revelation for whoever's reading this. I've been stagnant here in the house for more than a year (still for classified reasons, I'm afraid, but you can probably take a guess). I did take on some part-time jobs, like the temporary encoder job at CITEM that I mentioned in some of my posts. not for the extra dough, but because I needed a reason to get out and stretch my legs. still, even with those bits of work that I got, I was still rooted here in the house, stuck in front of the pc monitor.

I never said that I didn't like it, though. actually, that IS the problem. I've begun to like this decadence my comfortable abode brought, so much that I've forgotten what I'm supposed to be doing in order to fix up my life that's so FUBAR (that's Fucked Up Beyond All Recognition, for all you non-bbs people out there).

so now I need a huge motivational boost to help me get my butt off this comfy chair and actually start doing something for my own good. but where do I find it? especially when I'm again hooked to an old-new craze that was once the reason to blame for singlehandedly crippling my college education at a former alma mater of mine.

what does the month of may have to do with all of this, anyway? well, I'm supposed to be either taking care of my return to campus by now, or, if that is really not the path I'm supposed to take, looking for a real job. that must be the reason I suddenly felt that slap while I was praying the rosary with my family a while ago.

but is that slap big enough to wake me up from this dream?

anyway, before I sleep, I'd like to share this video of Mari Iijima singing Ai Oboete Imasuka. this was the song that Lynn Minmay sang in the cult classic "Super Dimensional Fortress Macross: Do you remember Love?". if you think yourself to be a true blue anime fan, then you should've known about this movie, otherwise you aren't what you claim yourself to be, LOL. I love this song so much, it gives me goosebumps everytime I hear Mari-san reach those high notes. makes me think about that transforming valkyrie mecha about to blast the hell out of greg bodolza's head right inside the mother ship. anyway, without further ado, here is the link (since it's forbidden to be embedded, by request). enjoy.

ciao!

edit: I found a video featuring the final battle and minmay's song. I'm gonna put it here to help you see why this was one of the most iconic anime movies of all time.




Feeling: sleepy

some people are just plain clueless
POSTED AT 01:28 AM

Blacksword

once upon a time, there was a driver who never took care of his car.

he never replaced the battery, installed old spark plugs, oftenly switches between unleaded and premium gas, doesn't change oil.. well, you get the idea.

his car breaks down. the driver gets stranded.

he suddenly wonders why it happenned.

oh well. I guess some people are just born clueless.

or selfish enough not to realize what their faults are.

the only comfort one can get is that someday, those clueless people will wake up and then suddenly see that huge pile of shit they've built about to hit the fan.

not just any fan. I'm talking industrial fan. time to wear your masks, people.

'cause karma's gonna be a bitch.
Feeling: giggly

time to wake up!
POSTED AT 05:24 PM

Blacksword

aww, so soon?

so at last, I have arrived at the moment that I've feared for so long.

it's time for me to lift my heavy butt off this chair and start moving.

I never realized that it would come so.. abruptly. or maybe I already knew but forgot about it. I don't know, my memory has been so hazy as of late. well, either way, I never got the chance to fully prepare myself, but I guess it wouldn't be necessary.

anyway, these are the things that I'll be doing:

1. go to school tomorrow. yes, I definitely need to go tomorrow if I plan on returning to school. I don't really know what I'm going to do once I'm there, but I guess everything's gonna fall into place. now, if only I could remember my student number..

2. beg my dad for tuition money. boy, this is gonna be hard.

3. go to work. my mom called me earlier today about work. and as it turns out, the office that I've worked for as an encoder wants me back. so, rather than waste an opportunity to earn a small amount of money, I decided to accept the job. it's gonna be for IFEX, and it's gonna last for about 8 days. and this time, the management have decided to maximize the encoders' work potential. which means that, aside from the actual encoding, we'll also be doing the job of the staff, the registration counter, and the enumerators. all of those duties for the six of us.

peachy.

meanwhile, these are the things that are going to be sacrificed:

1. time with my baby. (although I'll make sure I still get to chat with her~)

2. ragnarok! I've just started playing two weeks ago. how the hell am I supposed to get my FS priest to transcend without playtime?

3. lazing around the house. no more lazy time. no more siesta. no more relaxing time. no more intarnetz. haaaay..

all good things must come to an end, I guess. oh well, 'twas a dreamy year. lethargy is good sometimes, especially when you're having fun. but sooner or later you'll realize that the time that you have available is really limited, and that you need to make the most out of it.

I'm still having a hard time accepting that fact, though. my body's still going through a withdrawal stage.

time to shed my lazy old self away if I'm to go through this new chapter in my life.

ciao.

Feeling: stressed

high and mighty color versus gaki no tsukai
POSTED AT 10:54 PM

Blacksword

this video is so friggin' weird. I have never imagined these two groups, both of which come from two TOTALLY different areas of entertainment, together in one show.

this is so weird. it's like having lucy torres interview a mentalist.. oh wait, that really happened, pretty awkward for her and the guests, by the way.

between the hosts and that painfully yellow wall, HaMC stood out like a sore thumb. not that I'm saying they look bad. especially not maki. what I meant was, this whole thing, it's just looks so.. contrasting. like the squares on a chessboard.

anyway, before I say 'this is so weird' again, here's the video:



now I'm really looking forward to HaMC having these guys do a batsu game on one of their future concerts. that's gonna be, like, one of the most baffling moments in japanese entertainment history. LOL.
Feeling: baffled

bakit nakakadepress ang friendster?
POSTED AT 01:55 AM

Blacksword

ewan.

whenever I take a look at my so-called friends' profiles, I can't help but feel miserable.

probably because of my current state in life.

I see my former batchmates (from every school that I've been to), and I see success. my mirror shows me none of such.

I see people that I've been friends with at some points in my life, and I see happiness. they're all happy. or at least, they're happier than me.

I see their profiles, the testimonials they've earned, the schools and companies they've come from, and I see progress. I take a look at mine and I can see the taint of stagnation.

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to some people, friendster is just an ordinary social networking website. unfortunately, those people can sometimes be careless about what they put into their profiles, not knowing that it can reflect the very essences of their personality. why?

disposition.

if you are a constant breaker of the rules of grammar, it reflects your state of education.

your profile can also show the label of your preference. I don't think anyone's gonna mistake a background of hot pink and glittering hearts for an emo boy's profile.

with regard to that statement, your profile could also probably reflect the depth of your understanding. true-blue sub-culture followers versus the posers. you know what I'm talking about.

copy-pasting latin phrases or words of wisdom onto a shout-out doesn't necessarily tell the people that you're intelligent, especially if the following profile contains $tUfF LyK D1ZzzZ.

having flashy profiles could mean that you're not prone to epileptic seizures.

having profiles containing lots of glittering images which make no sense, multiple media players, and a lot of flash applications may mean that you have no idea about harmonious design, or webpage design etiquette. or you may just have a fast internet connection.

whatever you may decide to place on your profile will definitely show who you are. and not just the superficial stuff. people with a good eye will know who the insecure ones are, the oblivious, the slutty, the preppy, those who don't give a damn, the lazy, the witty, the successfu, et cetera et cetera.

and warning you to be careful will certainly not help. even with total care, you'll still need to put in something, unless you can't, so you'll just leave it blank. and even then, blank profiles can still tell people something.. like.. the fact that you're not interested in friendster. and further analysis of that fact can help build a hypothetical image of yourself in people's minds.

or maybe I'm just overanalyzing again.

so before I blabber on about more nonsense..

ciao!

Feeling: sleepy