blargh
POSTED AT 11:29 AM

Blacksword

I'm moving back here. multiply's so friggin' slow, it effs my browser up.

cheers.

profound thoughts coming next.
POSTED AT 04:30 PM

Blacksword

I'm bored. again.

I have about 5 pc games installed on my rig right now. that's not including the countless playstation and GBA games I have that can be played on this sweet ol' machine of mine.

yet I'm still uninspired. to the point that I wish I have something sensible/profound to blog about. but there's nothing. noooooothiiing.

makes me think about a certain 'friend' of mine who flagrantly abuses the english language in order to talk about.. absolutely nothing. I have read some of the bulletins he posts on friendster. while explicitly using complicated jargon and being absolutely verbose with his compositions, he had never made any sense. I mean, he did talk about something, but most of the time, he was just trying to say "I'm pissed at you (insert name here)". then he pumps it with tons of cliche phrases and totally googled words, then passes it off as proof of his self-proclaimed "genius". rubbish.

how would I know? I grew up with this guy.

then again, I'm doing the same thing right now, hahaha. well at least I get to do some public service;

so to everyone who gets to read this, read my words: fluency in english doesn't make you intelligent. or a deep thinker, for that matter. I have seen people who write and speak totally in filipino who have made more sense in their dispositions on the internet/real life than most people I know who struggle with their english vocabulary in the hopes that people will see them as 'cool'.

it's what you say that counts. true glory consists of doing what deserves to be written, and writing what deserves to be read. (I totally ripped that out from some great person, just forgot who the hell he was, though.)

so why am I posting in english? 'cause I'm -practicing.- I never said that english is bad, 'ya know. it doesn't really make you truly smart, but at least you don't look stupid on the internet, ROFL.

Ciao!

(p.s. omfg I'm back)

manila... fame!
POSTED AT 11:25 PM

Blacksword

bukas na naman. deym.

this is weird. I'm quite nervous about going to work tomorrow, but I was the one who wanted this job. a paradox to force me to sleep.

what I meant was.. tomorrow, I'll be going again to yet another temporary job just to earn a bit of money before I go back to school. I'll be encoding for CITEM's manila F.A.M.E. again. for me, that means being torn away from my usual comforts just to earn some measly amount of dough. but I guess it's okay, since I need some stuff on my pc fixed. besides, I get to meet a lot of interesting people..

which is the part that makes me feel nervous. I hope me and the new guys can get along, since we'll be sitting next to each other from 9 am to 7 pm every day (not including the additional overtime) for ten days. if we don't, well, then, it's probably fine since ten days isn't that very long anyway. I'll just have to cover my ears until it ends.

sigh. if only money wasn't that strong a motivation, I wouldn't care less about getting a job. I'd rather be here playing. but, then again, I really need to shed my laziness if I want to do the stuff that I want (like getting a real job), so being proactive would help me get my tempo back.

anyway, before I continue spitting out more nonsense, I better rest. it's hard to create a cohesive entry when you're sleepy, but I just had to type in what I have in mind right now, even if it doesn't read good. so there, I hacked it in. time to go beddy-bye-bye.

ciao.

email-bred nostalgia
POSTED AT 08:48 PM

Blacksword

part 1

while I was waiting for my ragnarok client to finish patching, I decided to read my old emails and the ones that I have sent myself. I came across an email I sent to a classmate a few years ago, and I saw that it included some c++ codes that I made for a project in my csci(?) class. and gawd, was I rusty with it. oh wait, rusty is an understatement. those codes scared the hell out of me.

pretty discouraging, actually. and to think that I'm supposed to be familiar with c++. wait.. I WAS familiar, but since I've been out of circulation for far too long, almost everything that I've known about programming has been erased from my memory.

even HTML. now that's sad.

so now I'm praying that my deeply-rooted unmotivation gets removed from my system. I have a lot of things that I need to do soon if I'm going to fix up this effed up life of mine. one of which is to not get scared when I see codes on the screen. at least, that's one of my secondary priorities. the top ones (which I brood about almost every day), maybe I'll whine about them someday, just.. not right now. let me stabilize myself first, okay?

part 2

ahh.. those bittersweet memories almost four years ago <3. you see, there was this time when me and my princess got separated by her parents for.. just being together. we didn't have our joint blog at that time, so instead of using instant messaging to contact each other (that was how we got caught, anyway), we used emails. I never realized how sweet we were, LOL (o, baby, you never included those in your anniversary gift, wala sa blogs natin eh .).

haaaay, feelings.. <3

there too was this email that I sent to her dad. back then, we decided that if we were to survive her mom's attack (LOL), we need to enlist her dad's help. he was supposed to be easier to deal with, hence the email. whether he read it or not (we never knew), he never replied. and to think that I racked my brains in writing that email. hmm, I guess that's just how parents are.. or at least to me . some of my friends were lucky. sigh.

oh, by the way, my second short stint at the manila fame (third for citem) ended last friday. it was nice, for a last day, although it doesn't compare to the previous one (sorry guys! I still like everyone very much). I took some pictures, but they were an uncooperative bunch, so they were pretty scattered in the resulting images. that's too bad, considering that it might -be- the last time that I'm going to work for that office. lots of small reasons for that. so the next time that I'll be going back would be to get my salary. and hopefully, that will be the last .

well, anyway, my patching's almost done, so I guess it's playtime now :D.

ciao!
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Feeling: sleepy