I'm such a softie.
POSTED AT 04:25 AM

Blacksword

cute kittens break my heart so easily. they really do. even the dirty street kittens. if you take some time to look at them closely, you'll realize that they're actually one of the cutest types of kitten walking on the streets.

I had the 'misfortune' of tripping onto one earlier today. I was walking along the streets of my subdivision when I noticed a small, furry thing on the sidewalk. that thing turned out to be a small dirty kitten. it was small, but its eyes were already open and its legs were capable of walking. probably a few weeks old. so I sat on the sidewalk beside the poor little thing. it was looking at me with big, awful eyes, as if it was trying to tell me that I should take it home. but I did not do that yet. I needed to tell if it was worth dirtying my hands and making my mother mad for bringing a dirty kitten back home. and of course, if I did take it home, then I'd have to take care of it, which means that I have to feed it and give it a bath, proper shelter, and clean up after it. well, it could've been fine, but I already had 2 full-grown cats. they're lazy and snobbish, but they're really cute, especially my grey. he's a gay cat with a huge pair of balls attached to his butt. anyway, while I was thinking about all those stuff, I was absent-mindedly cuddling this little furry thing beside me. and, as if it was a robot that was activated, the kitten suddenly sprang to life, stood up and began to rub against my hand. the only word, if there's such a word, that came out of my mouth was 'awww'.

that did it. I took him and brought the poor guy home. when I got home, I took a box and turned it into a bed for the small kitten. then I bought some milk and bread and fed him.

and that was it. I have a new cat to feed and take care of. even if it was dirty, and I could get sick from touching it (I had german measles just days before, and I'm still kinda weak), I can't just stand and watch the poor thing die on the streets.

besides, why are we here? why do humans exist on this planet? what food chain do they belong to, what natural cycle do they affect? what is our purpose? well, the only answer that I can think of is, of all the species that exist on this planet, we are the only ones who have the power to protect all the species on earth. I heard that from an advertisment on tv. but it defintely makes sense to me. that's why I do everything I can to show compassion to these poor animals.

of course, the Lord God is merciful to all those who show compassion. Buddha gave a murderer the chance to escape hell because of compassion. we need a lot of it in these evil times. if everyone helped each other out, the world would be so much better, I'm sure.

anyway, I hope my little friend is doing fine. tomorrow, I'll be giving him a bath. why tomorrow? because he's still weak. if I gave him a bath right away, he could've died. cats easily drown, you know. not because they can't swim. they just hate water.

oh, and by the way, do you have any suggestions on what I may name the poor guy? he's cute, has grey patches on his fur, and he has a short tail. any ideas?

'till next time, then.

ciao!

staying up late makes me happy
POSTED AT 03:44 AM

Blacksword

pero, hay, it's already 3 am and I still can't sleep. this is bad.

start of classes was on september 13, which was last week, and I'm still lazing around the house. why? 'cause I have'nt finished enrolling yet. I'll probably do it on monday. sana hindi pa ako late, 1 week pa lang naman ang lumilipas eh.

anyway, eto na nga, I can't sleep. natapos ko na ata half-life, yet my lids are still far from becoming droopy. well, it's probably because I don't usually feel good when I don't get to talk to my baby for a long time. kanina, nag usap kami, pero that conversation wasn't too good. she was sleepy, and I was out of focus, and on top of that, her dad caught her. it's one thing for him when he sees her daughter awake in the middle of the night. seeing her awake while using a laptop is a whole new story. kaya eto, kabado ako. she's supposed to be online by 12, or 1, at least. hirap talaga pag paranoid ang parents ng girlfriend mo, hahaha.

come to think of it, minsan mahirap talaga 'tong ginagawa namin. different time zones, malayo sa isa't isa, only medium of communication is the internet. we don't get to see each other, except when we use webcams or send pictures of ourselves. of course, we can't meet. kaya inggit ako minsan sa ibang couples, especially when they talk about themselves, like, how their dates go, what movie they watched, who paid for what, etc etc. ako naman, parang, damn shut up, hindi ako naiingit! pero wala, inggit pa rin.

kaya ang ginagawa ko pag nagseselos ako sa mga couples na yan, tumitingin ako sa pictures namin dati nung magkasama pa kami. ah, that's one of the things that I liked about us. we're camwhores XD. every chance we get, we take at least one picture of us both, flashing our same smiles in the almost-same pose that we do with every picture we take. that's why I never forget a single date that we've had. and it's nice, thinking about those beautiful memories. minsan parang naiisip ko, sayang, I could've done better, kase parang yung mga times na magkasama kami, it seemed like I took them for granted. pero hmm, on second thought, nah, pwede na yun .

well, point is, I'm happy. I could say a lot more about why I am happy even though the both of us are going through this kind of adversity, but, hmm, di bale na lang . what matters is that I love her so much, and regardless of what we're going through right now, I know that once upon a time, we were happy . and just because we're apart right now doesn't mean that our happiness has to stop there. of course not . it's just a matter of perception, hehehe.

so eto, kahit malapit na mag 4, hintay pa rin ako. kahit alam kong for four years, ganto lang ako, haha, okay lang. she's always worth the wait .

oh by the way, may naalala ako sa kakatype ko ng smiley, hahaha. stupid self-righteous blogger-who-blogs-like-a-butcher. burn in hell, you pompous brat. if you can't type smileys, well too bad, your mind cannot comprehend expressing your thoughts beyond facial expressions and words. ah pero sa bagay, he won't get to read this. he's too busy proliferating the lie of his self-proclaimed intelligence. boo-hoo. and I never added him. swerte na lang nya no, hahaha.

ciao.