ack..
POSTED AT 05:30 PM

Blacksword

damn the people who invented IE.

my page does'nt display correctly on other browsers! I'm using opera right now. this is by far the most compliant browser to the WWWC standards.

and yet my page is'nt displayed correctly! darn, selfish IE makers. actually, of all browsers, IE is the least compliant with WWWC HTTP format standards. it's all because Bill Gates does'nt want to comply with any standard HTTP format the world wide web consortium enforces. he wants to make his own standard eh. well, at least most of the people who browse the internet are on windows. but still..

I wanna use opera~ T___T opera's cool eh~

'look ma, no-hands-internet-browsing!' LOL. voice command~ coolness XD.

oh well, at least most of the page displays correctly .

sick
POSTED AT 11:32 PM

Blacksword

- sis got beat up by assholes
- dad's heating up on me
- my batchmates are graduating this march
- midterm exams next week
- I still don't have an ID
- my guitar's still AWOL
- no money to buy a new one
- spent 500 bucks on things I really didn't need to have but still have to be spent on
- mom borrowed 200, sis borrowed 100, I won't be expecting both to pay back
- I'm broke
- my history class is history
- and so is my math class..
- my csci02 instructor's an immature prick
- need to do a program on multiplication tables that uses tags that I have yet to understand
- my economics professor just retired, still thinking about where to pick up a decent grade for that subject
- the internet's slow and so goddamn frustrating
- can't play RAN
- just got whipped at utopia
- and at battle.net by some guy who thinks he's a WC3 god
- my WC3 map's all screwed up
- I still suck at DotA
- still can't play Adventure Quest
- I'm so out of shape
- still no MP4
- and no up dharma down's fragmented either
- it's getting hot here in the philippines

- my princess is missing.
- I miss her so much.
- I'm so lonely

- my life is screwed.

period. no resolution.

my life is screwed.

17
POSTED AT 08:31 PM

Blacksword

to my lovely, lovely princess,

happy 17th monthsary ^__^. uy, next month, debut na~ LOL. well, malayo ka man right now, celebrate pa rin tayo . just for the fact that we still love each other so much. that's reason enough for me to celebrate this special day with you. tuloy pa rin tayo sa pagbilang.

hintay lang kita dito baby.

I love you so much, my princess rika .

lifeless? (subtitile: new blog comin' up)
POSTED AT 07:30 PM

Blacksword

hmm wala lang. naalala ko lang yung sabi sa amin ng isa sa kingdom na kalaban namin sa utopia, 'you must be a lifeless bunch of geeks to be this active in a webgame'.

LOL wala lang ang gaming sa dugo nyo. and dude, you don't know shit of a quarter of my gaming, hahaha.

and if he's training that statement towards me, well, itatanong ko sa kanya kung lifeless nga bang maitatawag yung activity ko sa games. wala na sya magagawa dun. mula nung nakahawak ako ng aking first gaming console, di na nawala ang gaming sa sistema ko. gaming IS my life (well besides my princess , gaming is my life.). kung hahatiin ko ang buhay ko into parts, siguro:

10% other stuff like eating and sleeping.
15% school.
15% social life (yes, I'm a very secluded bastard)
40% syempre sa prinsesa ko ^__^
and of course, 20% sa gaming.

that 40% part of my life that is not about my princess or gaming goes in this blog. well, part of it that I can tell, at least. the rest is too explicit and gory to be displayed here, hahaha. or because I'm too lazy to post anything about my life nowadays. siguro talagang ubos na nga talaga ang neurons sa utak ko. too much wrestling, perhaps? ewan, pero sure ako, nauubusan na ako ng IQ, LOL.

and that 40% part of my life that involves my princess is stored in another blog where me and my princess share our thoughts and stories with each other. that's where I've been posting daily since the day she left for the states. but that's another story.

so anyway, as you can see, games and gaming form a huge part of the person that is andoy. hmm, so where am I going with this statement? since I don't want to talk a lot about games in this blog, I'm planning to make a new blog. and of course, it's all about games, if you have'nt been catching up to what I was talking about . anyway, that blog will be the host of my gaming experience, my entire story as a gamer. and I'm sure I'll be posting in that blog everyday. because every day, I'll be talking about one gaming topic, be it a particular game of a certain genre, or a strategy for that game, or my own experience on mmorpgs, etc etc. basta. the whole package. platformers, rpgs, fighting games, mmorpgs, webgames, reviews, my own walkthroughs, links for my own home-made WC3 maps and, possibly gaming projects that I'll probably program by myself. everything, as long as it covers MY own gaming experience. after all, it is my blog. pero syempre, it'll be open for all gamers, serious and casual alike . and who knows, you might find something that could be useful for your own gaming.

I'll probably put it up sometime next week.

as for now, ciao!

sweet nostalgia
POSTED AT 07:50 PM

Blacksword

haha guess what I'm doing right now?

I don't know what kind of boredom took over my body and prompted me to open my archives, but here I am, browsing over my old posts. and isa lang masasabi ko: hindi ako ang taong nagsulat ng mga 'to, LOL. ewan ko, talagang.. halata ko yung changes eh. kahit medyo subtle, nung tinignan ko ng mabuti, nakita ko yung pagkakaiba ng pagkatao ko noon at ngayon. o baka sa style lang ng pagsusulat ko yun. parang.. sabi ko sa sarili ko, 'ako ba nagsulat ng mga 'to?'. kase wala lang, parang napaka creative at fearless ko magsulat noon. nailalabas ko pa yung mga nasa isip ko noon thru this old blog of mine. di ko alam kung kaya ko pa ireplicate yung activity na ginagawa ko noon sa blogging.

wala lang, nakakatuwa basahin ang mga old posts ko. para sa akin, malayo na mula nung nailagay ko dito yung mga posts na yun. pero ang kulet, parang nagbabasa ako ng blog ng ibang tao na somehow eh nakakarelate o naiintindihan ko. kakaiba rin mapansin yung taste ko sa iba't ibang mga bagay. tulad ng music. nakita ko yung path ng evolution ng choices ko sa mga banda. nakakatuwa. ansarap din pansinin nung mga maliliit na detalye. tulad ng.. haha eto bagong trivia para sa amin ng prinsesa ko: the day before I actually met rika for the first time, I already called her 'baby' in the entry made on that day! sobrang nagulat ako nung nabasa ko, hindi ko talaga sya maalala! we are'nt supposed to be in a relationship yet back then, not until 3 weeks later. and we've only started calling each other pet names a few months ago. haha ang galeng.

haha, pati yung mga lumang comments ng mga tao. andaming memories.

kaya, eto ako, listening to my old cds that I wrote a few years back. back when I was that person who was posting those old entries in this old blog. lumabas na naman ang pagiging sentimental ko.

sana mabalik ko yung activity na ginagawa ko dati sa aking mahal na blog. para may balikan pa akong mga posts 5 years, or who knows, ten years from now, hahaha. ah eto. I swear to God, I won't stop posting my life in this blog until tabulas goes down. ah at babalikan ko posts ko one hour before 1) my graduation day ceremony and 2) my wedding.

sakto, 2 months na lang, 2nd year anniversary na ng bloggie ko. on that day, mag aavail ako ng paid account dito sa tabulas . kelangang magbigay ng thank you kay Roy .

ciao!
Listening to: Rivermaya! (senti mode talaga ako ngayon) - 214
Feeling: nostalgic

damn soap operas..
POSTED AT 10:42 PM

Blacksword

that damn creative writer who made up my life must've been the biggest klutz in the business.

I don't know. maybe it's because my dharma's going south nowadays. or I'm just plain stupid. whatever. but it looks like everything that's happening in my life right now just seems to be following a weird path akin to that of a stereotype protagonist in a typical souped-up telenovela that tv networks usually show during primetime hours.

back then, I really did'nt care about how my life would turn out. I was once one of those happy-go-lucky guys whos idea of going through a day was to sit down and play games until the sun went down. everything went according to plan. nothing seemed to go against my luck. I never knew my life would be this screwed, not until recently.

I'm supposed to graduate this year. but my studies have been delayed due to *ahem* some 'unforseen circumstances'. so now, my dad's heating up on me because of that delay. he's been on my case for like, a century now. I guess I did deserve that kind of treatment 'cause he really had high expectations for me back then. but it really pumps my stress meter up to maximum. and that's not even half of the story.

my older brother's graduating. and there's a very large possibility that he's gonna be staying here. here, in our house, after a long absence. I never had close ties with my older brother. since he was raised alone by my grandparents, he grew up to be very spoiled and bratty. so he tends to claim everything to be his own, and always declares himself to be over everybody else in terms of.. well, everything. I can't stand that kind of behavior, as much as everyone else in this household. but what can we do? he's family. so all we can do now is to accept him into this home and treat him with respect and tolerance. in short, we'll just have to let him bully us around. blah.

ah, and next year, my parents (dad) might force me to find a job somewhere in order for me to continue my studies. haha. me, the spoiled brat. earning my own keep. my dharma's wheel is really going south then. it's all because my dad's really disappointed in me, and he's getting tired of paying for my studies which, he claims, I don't appreciate. maybe so, but I'm trying to redeem myself free of the mistakes that I did back then. he just won't give me a chance to do so.

and of course, my princess isn't home yet. still have to wait for her to come back and turn everything back into the good life that it was back when she was still here. she's the only one who can make me smile again.

so in just a little while, I'll be living that typical protagonist storyline in a story where everything's supposed to be alright after a long time of hardships and trials. whatever. there's only one thing that I'll be sure of, and that's the fact that I'll get through this period in my life, somehow. whatever the ending may be, I'll live through this. just have to wait until the wheels of fate start turning north again.

note to self: patience, patience. everything will be just fine.

'til next time, then.

ciao.