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August 1st, 2004

This means war!
POSTED AT 05:29 PM

I just declared war with spyware. For sometime now, I've been allowing spyware to run around freely in my computer, 'cause they've been harmless...until now. When I tried to log on to faitH, suddenly the browser redirected me to a spyware site. I tried to log on again, but it kept redirecting me. I was getting mad. I know it was spyware, but I did'nt know it could disrupt my browsing this way. So I decided this is war. I downloaded mozilla to replace Internet Explorer for the meantime. Now I'm gonna apply all my PC knowledge to remove these goddamn spyware from my pc. Plus, I've downloaded tons of anti-spyware scanners, removers, and blockers, and I updated my anti-virus program. I also ran registry edit, and did preventive measures against trojans. I will continue on with the war until I remove all traces of spyware from my PC. LOL I sound like McArthur.


August 4th, 2004

gulo gulo gulo...
POSTED AT 11:33 PM

Aaaah bwiset. Since monday bad trip na ako. Ewan ko ba, malas yata ako this week. Monday...maaga ako nagising 'coz it's PE day. Paggising ko nga kala ko end of the world na kase lahat nakaputi, kaya nag puti din ako kase akala ko mga nakaputi lang ang maliligtas, LOL. Class that day was kinda sleepy. After school, kala ko mapayapa na akong makakapag laro sa 'king tambayan, kaso I was wrong. Sabay sundo sa 'kin nung isa kong friend, pnta kme anonas, abang sa isang tao na wala naman, tapos deretso sa house ng friend ko, nagpaayos ng pc at nagpainstall ng private server sa 'kin, tapos deretso pa sa bahay nung isa ko pang friend. Nakikain dahil b-day nung girlfriend nung pinsan nung friend ko (LABO). Nasindak pa kme sa parents nung friend ko, tapos na umay sa kabusugan...montek na rin mauwi sa inuman kaso binitin ko kase kelangan ko umuwi ng matino, at besides, lunes eh...not so malas, pero malas pa rin...

Tuesday...Ah eto ang matindi ang malas. Wala kmeng class nung final period...so deretso tambayan para maglaro sana...kaso sabay sundo na naman sa 'kin nung friend ko na naman, ewan ko ba, sabik siguro sa crv nya, palibhasa mayaman...sinundo muna namin si tintin sa UP diliman, tapos deretso na sa celebrity country club na member ung friend kong madatung, ok lang kase libre nya kame. Ayun, nagbilyar cla, ako nde kasali kse nde ako mahilig sa bilyar. Nanuod na lang kme ni tintin nung extra challenge, na interes kme dun sa nangyari dun kay alicia mayer, LOL. Eh syempre, after the show, mga 8 na a, eh gusto ko na umuwi, kaso bitin pa ung mga friends ko. Sabi ko una na ako, kaso ayaw nila maiwan, so kahit bitin pa sila, alis na kme. Turns out na ako pa masisisi sa pagkabitin nila, so we rode off na bad trip sa isa't isa, hanggang sa umabot sa punto na bumaba na ako't tumawag ng cab kase nde ko na kaya, bad trip na tlga ako sa kanila, nagkakagaguhan lang...lakas pa ng ulan while papauwi ako....malas tlga tong day na to....

Pero ang pinakamalas is wednesday, today...ang init tlga ng ulo ko because of what happened yesterday. Si loka nag sosori sa kin nasigawan daw nya ako...pretend ako forgive ko cya, kaso tampo tlga ako sa kanya. Anyway, mainit tlga ang ulo ko this day. Since last thursday hinde ako makalaro ng matino. So, ginawa ko, bumili ako ng FHM sa cubao, ala lang, ganda kc nung bagong ish. Pero, today, I was looking forward to a very special meeting sana...kaso...wala! Well, I understand her sana, kaso lalo ako nalungkot. Tapos yung isa kong barkada, kawawa din, talo na sa pustahan twice, nde pa cya pinansin nung nililigawan nya...basta long story yun, in the end, nagbreak down cya, pati kami naluha na rin sa awa. Pati yung friend ko sa tambayan, naiyak din kase na miss na cya ng mom nya kc nde cya nakatira sa house nila right now, pinuntahan cya sa tambayan! Awa din kme, tlgang nakadungaw cya sa window, nagiisip...Pero wala, pinakamalaking misfortune ko tlga today is...wala, nde ko na lang sasabihin, basta todo bad trip ako ngaun, wala pa ung ka chat ko kc pinagpalit ako sa isang tv show...T_T wala na tlga nagmamahal sa kin...T_T

ah ewan, sa sobrang lungkot ko maaga yata ako mamamatay... basta sana nde ako malasin, may 2 days pa para maging masaya, SANA lang SANA, swertehin ako tommorow and the day after, sana po!!!
Listening to: The Reason - Hoobastank
Feeling: sad


August 7th, 2004

I'd give up forever to touch you...
POSTED AT 12:06 PM

I don't know, maybe it's the live band at celebrity's fault...playing too many love songs...or is it because I'm in my hopeless romantic mode again. I'm behaving too strangely these past days, and my friends are noticing the change. I don't know what I'm feeling right now, it's like I'm having mixed feelings about it...well, have you ever felt the feeling that, you want something and you try to grasp it but you can't even touch it? All you can do is to stare at it all day and be more frustrated by your inability to grasp it? Maybe that's the reason why I'm like this now...I don't want to be like this, but I'm losing all control, more and more I think of her, less and less I care about the world around me...everything I do does'nt make me forget, and the more I try to, the more I think about her, until I came to a point that I would just stare at her picture all night long, talking to her, watching her smile, staring at those eyes, and trying to reach her...then suddenly I wake up a bit when my hand gets stopped by reality...she's not there. Then I sigh and stare at her again...It was like a dream, staring at those wonderful eyes...I know it's wrong...yes it's wrong to reach out to her, but as I balance myself with rights and wrongs, thinking of her, I let go of all the cares in the world, until I reached the point where I feel I still need to be with her, even if it means giving up on everything...even if it means my life would end on the day we meet...even if she's so high up there and I am only here at the middle...I don't care if she seems so unreachable, or if there's an iron wall between us, or if even time itself would try to stop me...God, just give me one day, I know it's wrong to ask for it, but just one day, meet her, then I don't care what happens next...whether it's good or it'ld mean my end...Heck, just to meet her...would be the closest to heaven I would get...

Maybe I'd stop here...as of now, I'm still trying to repress myself, so that I'd get back to my normal self once again...but I don't know if that's what I really want...so, a bit more time and silent contemplation...It's either be myself again, going on with my everyday life, or go for it, have what I want, and destroy myself in the end...


August 11th, 2004

2nd survey...saya tlga ng mga survey
POSTED AT 02:03 PM

eto na naman ako...sasagot na naman, ewan ko ba ba't trip ko sumagot ng survey pag nakakakita ako ng isa...wahehehe...galing sa blog ni rika...

> *Ano ang nasa isip mo ngayon?
> >survey na naman...>
> *Sino ang nasa isip mo ngayon?
> >sya...un na un...
>
> *May gagawin ka ba mamaya?
> >pag hindi ako sinundo ni harry, laro lang ako MU
>
> *Kung hindi ikaw ang sarili mo ngayon, sino ka?
> >protogee ni hitler...mwahahaha
>
> *Ano nickname mo?
> > henry...(daw, nde ako gumawa nito)
>
> *Nickname na pinaka-ayaw mong tinatawag ka:
> > fernando jose
>
> *Bagay na dala-dala mo araw-araw
> > suklay at id sa kaliwang pocket, pera at celphone sa kanan, tsaka ung banal kong binder
>
> *Taong lagi mong kasama:
> > barkada ko
>
> *Ano ang palagi mong ginagawa after school?
> >roadtrip
>
> *Kung masa-stuck ka sa isang isla ng isang
> linggo, sino ang gusto mong makasama at
> bakit?
> > sya ulit...
>
> *Kung magiging anime character ka, sino ang
> gusto mo?
> > basta bida, masaya na ako
>
> *Mamili ka: Iiwan mo ang taong mahal mo, at
> single ka na lang habambuhay pero marami
> kang pera, o kasama mo ang taong mahal mo
> pero magdarahop kayo habambuhay?
> > hmm, nde ko masagot ngaun kc cloudy ang decision-making facilities ko....
>
> *Isang awiting nagre-reflect sa kung ano ang
> nararamdaman mo ngayon:
> > jumbo hotdog...wahehehehe, nde joke lang. wala po
>
> *Unang pumapasok sa isip mo pagkagising ng
> umaga:
> > "saket ng mata ko"
>
> *Bagay na natanggap mo na kinilig ka:
> > text...
>
> *Natawag ka na bang nerd?
> > ung huling tumawag sa kin ng ganyan nasa ibang bansa, nagpapagamot...
>
> *Nagmamadali ka ba ngayon?
> > nde naman...
>
> *Kung aalis ka at hindi ka na babalik ng
> Pilipinas kahit kailan, san ka pupunta?
> > sa japan...the home of the rising sun, cherry blossoms, ramen, and hentai...mwahahahaha
>
> *Ano ang favorite mong song?
> > marami...
>
> *Meron ka bang special someone?
> > "I hope you feel the same way too..." dadadada
>
> *Gusto ka ba niya?
> > malay ko...try ko ask sometime...
>
> *Any words na gusto mong sabihin sa kaniya?
> > wala ako maisip
>
> *Alam mo kung asan siya ngayon?
> > sa earth
>
> *Pano mo siya nakilala:
> > sikreto....
>
> *Ano favorite mong color:
> > pinkish brown...joke. Black po


1. seloso ka ba?
- to the max

2. chismoso ka ba?
- nde

3. matigas ba ulo mo?
- pag gusto ko magpasaway

4. mahilig ka ba mang asar?
- pag natutuwa ako sa tao

5. madalas ka bang manlait?
- nde madalas, pero nanlait na ako

6. mayabang ka ba?
- pag nakainom ng vitamins

7. malakas ka ba magmura?
- hmmm...kumpas ng bibig, pero intentional, nde

8. ina-under mo ba ang gf/bf mo?
- ako po ung under...

9. magastos ka ba?
- pag may pera

10. tamad ka bang mag aral?
- WAHAHAHAHAHA

11. marami ka bang kaaway?
- wala na...nasa ibang bansa, nagpapagamot

12. kuripot ka ba?
- pag walang pera

13. barbero ka ba?
- pag gusto ko lang

14. mahilig ka ba maghabol sa taong ayaw
naman sayo?
- malay ko ba, kung ayaw nya, e di wag

15. madalas ka bang mangopya sa exams?
- nung highschool

16. maangas ka b?
- pag baklain yung mga nakakasabay ko

17. epal ka ba?
- nde

18. black sheep ka ba ng pamilya?
- nde

19. inaabuso mo ba ang mga hayop
- pag cute

20. wala ka bang kwentang kaibigan?
- nde ah, kung gusto mo magpasama sa kin hanggang kinabukasan, sasamahan kita

21. madumi ba ang kwarto mo?
- nde madumihan, walang ikakalat

22. late ka ba palagi?
- nde ako malalate, hapon class ko

23. teachers pet ka ba?
- nung highschool

24. snob ka ba?
- hmmm...oo

25. suplado ka ba?
- siguro...

26. bastos ka ba?
- panong bastos? kung bastos as in manyak, nde. kung bastos as in walang modo, pag galit ako sa tao

27. immature ka ba mag isip?
- pag masaya ako

28. madamot ka ba?
- nde, never, unless kukunin mo na ung para sa kin

29. ma-sikreto ka ba?
- mwahahaha...dunno

30. malakas ka bang mang-trip?
- OO

31. Madalas mo bang paiyakin ang gf/bf mo?
- ako ung pinapaiyak

32. abnormal ka ba?
- kaw ata eh...

33. pa-cute ka ba?
- nde

34. social-climber ka ba?
- di ko na kelangan mag climb, dinadala ako pataas...wahehehe joke

35. K.J. ka ba?
- pag gusto ko na umuwi, oo

36. outcast ka ba?
- nde...cla inaoutcast ko

37. Ginagawa mo ba ang mga bagay na alam mong iligal?
- malay ko...nde ako lawyer

38. Puro kalokohan lang ba ang nasa isip mo?
- hehehehehehehe

39. Sinisiraan mo ba ang ibang tao?
- nde...nde ako backstabber. pag gusto ko manlait, harapan

40. Papansin ka ba?
- pag gusto ko

41. Pagod ka na bang sumagot?
- nde

42. Last words?
- pede isa pa?


August 11th, 2004

eto pa ulit, sarbaaaaaay
POSTED AT 03:36 PM

KISSED UR COUSIN?
--> nung very very young pa ako

RAN AWAY?
--> umm, sandali lang

BROKEN SOMEONE'S HEART?
--> never

HAD YOUR HEART BROKEN?
--> twice

BROKEN A BONE?
--> nope

CRIED IN SCHOOL?
--> uh-huh

__________This or That__________

COKE OR PEPSI?
--> coke

SPRITE OR 7UP?
--> pareho lang eh

FLOWERS OR CANDY?
--> candy, para pede itago

QUIET OR LOUD?
--> quiet

BLONDES OR BRUNETTES?
--> I prefer looking at the face, but I guess blondes...

TALL OR SHORT?
--> short

JEANS OR SHORTS?
--> depende. sa bahay, shorts. sa labas, jeans

__________The Last Time You__________

SHOWERED?
--> kanina

__________What Is__________

YOUR GOOD LUCK CHARM?
--> id ko

PERSON YOU HATE MOST?
--> hmm...nasa ibang bansa na cya, nagpapagamot

LUCKY NUMBERS?
--> 8

__________What is your favorite__________

COLOR?
--> black

MOVIE?
--> LOTR trilogy tsaka a walk to remember

BOOK?
--> tolkien books

SUBJECT IN SCHOOL?
--> history

HOLIDAY?
--> every day is a holiday~

__________Who__________

MAKES YOU LAUGH THE MOST?
--> sya...

MAKES YOU SMILE?
--> sya pa rin

WHO HAS A CRUSH ON YOU?
--> malay ko...pag may nagsabi

__________Do You Ever__________

SIT BY THE PHONE WAITING FOR A
PHONE
CALL ALL
NIGHT?
--> nope. sa celphone oo

SAVE E-MAILS?
--> basta let's say nde ako nagbubura.

WISH YOU WERE SOMEONE ELSE?
--> sometimes

CRIED BECAUSE OF SOMEONE'S MEAN
Word?
--> sa sister ko lang. +10 very very strong yung dila nun eh

__________Have You__________

FALLEN FOR YOUR BEST FRIEND?
--> nde

MADE OUT WITH JUST A FRIEND?
--> never

BEEN IN LOVE?
--> I am now

BEEN IN LUST?
--> ...once...

BEEN KISSED?
--> yep

__________Who was the last
person__________

YOU TOUCHED?
--> ung driver ng tricycle

YOU TALKED TO?
--> mom

YOU HUGGED?
--> friend ko

WHO BROKE YOUR HEART?
--> hahahahahaha...nasa ibang bansa na, nagpapagamot

__________Do you__________

COLOR YOUR HAIR?
--> never

HAVE TATTOOS?
--> I plan to

EVER GET OFF THIS DAMN COMPUTER?
--> nevah

-----------

1.bastos k b?
> pag gusto kong mambastos

2. anong pinakamadalas mong basahin na
libro?
> return of the king...pudpod na

3. if u would wish for someone else's
happiness,
who would it be for ?
> her happiness would be my happiness

4. jologs na kung jologs pero anong favorite
mong telenovela?
> maria del barrio

5. sinong favorite mong American idol?
> kelly clarkson

6. what's ur favorite cds in your collection?
> wala akong collection, but my fave is the one with the j-music songs

7. kung lilipat ka ng school at magshi-shift ng
course, saan? Ano?
> dlsu, com sci

8. sa buong buhay mo, kanino ka
pinakanagalit?
> sa kalbong mama

9. anong favorite mong sawsawan?
> ketsap

10. anong favorite mong ulam?
> jumbo hatdog

11. anong gusto mong panoorin sa sine?
> pag horror, ok

12. may kasama ka na? Sino?
> right now? si harry tsaka si mark...

13. anong favorite mong t-shirt?
> ung party shirt ko

14. anong ibig sabihin ng BJ
> batang jologs hehehehe~ (kala mo inosente eh no)

15. mahilig ka don?
> sinasaksak ko sila sa leeg, tapos lumilipat sila ng ibang bansa para magpagamot...

16. anong suot mo pag natutulog?
> shorts lang

18. sinong favorite mong gwapings?
> pinatay ko na sila

19. kelan ka huling umiyak?
> kelan nga ba? yung huling nagpaiyak sa kin nasa states, nagpapa opera

20. anong oras ka natulog kagabi?
> 12, standard ko na yun

21. may kausap ka s telepono? Ka chat?
> ngayon? si rika.

22. anong favorite mong commercials?
> ung skinwhite, ganda nung babae dun eh hehehe~

23. anong paninindigan mo sa buhay?
> pag ibig at katarungan!

24. Kung mabubuhay ka ulit, sino ka?
> presidente ng pilipinas

25. Umalis ka ba ngayon? San ka nagpunta?
> sa tambayan

26. Anong favorite mong love story movies?
> beren and luthien

27. e comedy?
> lahat, basta nakakatawa

28. e horror?
> ewan ko kung horror to, pero event horizon..un

29. e action?
> SOLID LOTR IHO

30. anong gustong mong pelikula na
pakiramdam
mo, ikaw lang ang nakapanood?
> carey

31. Name one person u want to keep forever?
sya...tsaka mom ko wahahaha


August 11th, 2004

eto paaaaaaah...mwahahaha this is survey day
POSTED AT 03:54 PM

Suplado - suplado o binge?

Playboy - pinapatay ko mga playboy

Mr. Shades - baka bulag

Bad boy - depende

Masculado - tae

guys who give flowers - ako yun

smiling face - pag may ka ismayl ismayl

hiphop - jologs

guys who ask permission b4 courting - baket, ano ba dapat

has earing/s - ah ako wala, malinis tenga ko

used to chew bubblegum - tagal na ako nde nag bababol gam

long-haired - bangs ko lang mahaba

antipatiko - ano ibig sabihin ng antipatiko

torpe - ganun ako...medyo...pag like ko tlga. pag nde, makapal mukha ko eh

computer-games geek- oo, ako....mwahahaha

basketball player - I play basketball...un lang

Mr. Count-my-ex's-till-you-drop - ano? huling nakilala kong ganyan, nasa japan, nagpapa ayos ng katawan

Bedimpled - wala akong kilalang meron nyan

mestizo - corny

guys who sing well - 98 AKO SA SING ALONG BRAD

quiet/tamed - tahimik ako, pero nde ako maamo

jester - pag nakainom ako ng vitamins

Cumlaude - ewan...nde ako sumipsip sa teacher...ganun mga honor sa min eh

formal - when formality is called for, formal ako sa formal

friendly - nde masyado...pag pinakilala sa kin, friendly ako, pero nde ako ung unang lumalapit...unless I really really like you

Mr. I have an opinion about anything &
everything - me is like that, pero minsan nakakaasar na ako

motorcyle guy - nde ako marunong mag drive ng motor...ay may kwento ako...nung nasa province ako, tinuruan ako ni insan...ang haba ng ginawa kong skidmark...hehehe

Rocker - nung sa ust ako, oo, rocker ako

skater boi - ano un

Alaskador(prankster) - nasa hospital sila ngaun eh...

flirt - walang lalaking ganun

Mr. Campus Crush - OO HEARTROB AKO WAHAHAHAHA

Bookworm - pag gusto ko magbasa ng book, nde ako matanggal minsan

Bigotilyo - nde ako mr. suave

Painter - nung nasa ust ako, ilustration guy ako nung newsletter namin

Galante- pag kelangan tsaka pag may pera

Mr. Love Letter - kelan ba ako huling nag love letter? ewan


August 15th, 2004

A turning point
POSTED AT 01:25 PM

I'm really sad right now. Just when everything's going fine, then this happens. Well, actually, I can live with this, but then...I just met her. My life was just going fine, I really did'nt care what happens to me, happy-go-lucky, so to speak. But then I meet her, this girl, and then I start worrying. Now I wish I did'nt meet her. Because she came into my life just when my problems are pouring in. I don't know if I can see her...damnit, is God angry at me? Is this the way he'd punish me for being so irresponsible and careless about my life? If so, then I did'nt know she'd come by. I'd be happy with the way things are if I did'nt know she'd be there. Even though my life is going through boiling pits and quicksand, I usually would'nt care. I even won't worry if I knew death took me tommorow. But then she came. When I was already in the bottom because of my carelessness and irresponsibility, she appears, making me wish I did'nt mess up my life, and making me regret what I have done. I'm in the so-close-yet-so-far-away status again, this time, deeper, and more hopeless. And I don't know if I can face her this way. Maybe I should forget her...but, damnit, I doubt I can find another person like her. She's literally one-in-a-million. If I pass on her, I'd be missing a chance of a lifetime. But my current situation won't let me, too many problems...damn, I don't need another reason to be angry with the world. I don't want to be sad, knowing that I did'nt get the chance because of my own shortcomings. How I wish she never came, so I could've lived out the rest of my life normally, even though it'ld be dull and lifeless...

I don't need a reason to be angry with God...

(by the way...I've been reading my earlier posts, and I noticed I've been too redundant with some points in most of my entries...maybe that's what happens when you're bent on one thing, the things that come out of you tend to be the same...but that's just my opinion. Just thinking out loud :D)


August 16th, 2004

more confusion
POSTED AT 10:26 PM

Damn. I'm faced with yet another set of choices. And I can't turn back once I choose one of them. Oh boy. More things making me confused a lot more than before. What's worse is that I don't have enought time to think about my options. I've gotta make my decision tommorow, damnit. Yes, I am going to make a very big decision tommorow, and think about it overnight! Another sleepless night coming up. Oh well, at least she did'nt show up on my mind today. I've been too busy about lots of things to have time to think about her. My mind would be a bit clearer that way, LOL. But still, this decision I'm about to make is hard to think about. I have to be in focus tonight, and think about my future, because this problem is about my studies, which I really screwed up big time. I might be transferring to another college/university next semester, and shift courses, well, because I really did'nt like my school/course combination. Even though my school has a big name and my course would probably land me in a high-paying job, still, I did'nt like it. As if it was my choice though, because my father forcefully shoved it down my throat. I practically endured 3 years in this school, just because it would ensure a "good future" for me. Well, now that I entered my major, I just found out that I did'nt dislike my course....I hated it. I did'nt really want to do this, all I wanted was to fulfill my dream, not this. So finally, I spoke up, and told my parents that I wanted to shift courses and transfer to another college/university. They did'nt like the idea, but it's my future that is at stake, and I plan to turn my dream job, which is more like a calling, into a reality, no matter the risk. So, tommorow I consumate my decision, and try to push my idealist dream forward. And I bet my God-forsaken life I will succeed in what I would start, because it's what I wanted to do all along...I just hope there's somebody left who's behind me...


August 17th, 2004

new layout!
POSTED AT 02:27 AM

Well, sampa na ako sa bandwagon, mwahahahaha. Anyways, welcome to the assasin's den, blacksword's files version 2. As you can see, medyo nagbago yung layout (LOL medyo eh no), pero I still decided to retain the color scheme and the sexy assasin :D. Well, at last nabago ko na rin, medyo matagal na ung luma kong layout, so, ayan, made in just 4 hours. Onga pla, thanks to Rika for the tips on xhtml, sumakit ulo ko dun, tsaka sa idea na magpalit na ko ng layout :D.
Listening to: Hikari, as always :D


August 17th, 2004

should've brought a camera
POSTED AT 10:27 PM

Shet, ewan ko kung ano meron sa araw na ito. Grabe, nagparada sa harap ko ang isang pulutong ng mga nag gagandahang mga dilag mula sa iba't ibang parte ng luzon! Omaygash dapat talaga nagdala ako ng camera na 1 million shots or isang videocam na may isang libong rolls! Sayang...tsk tsk, well at least I know isa akong normal na lalaki, kundi, baka hindi ako natuwa sa tanawin ngayong araw na ito :D

...pero, suddenly, I did'nt need a cam! Mwahahaha, I got a username/password for casey's cam (read: non-nude but still, not suitable for minors 17 and below :D) from a very good friend of mine! Naughty me :D

Oh, and ang saya ko sa faitH. Woohoo natuklasan ko ako ang pinakamalakas na emperor sa buong land 4. LOL, tapos tinuruan pa ako ng bagong laro ng isa kong friend, yung utopia. Parang faith din, so baka pareho lang diskarte na gagawin ko dito. Maghahari na naman ako sa isang laroooo~ LOL.

Uh, wala lang, medyo gumaan ung spirits ko kase tapos na ung mga ilan sa problema ko ngaun, so, well, medyo smile na naman ako :D

peace out
Listening to: Hikari pa rin :D
Feeling: alabyu casey :D


August 18th, 2004

enter da sandman
POSTED AT 10:02 PM

Woah, I got sleepy! That one's a record. Have'nt had a good shut-eye since who knows when, hahaha. Maybe it's because I got bored from doing nothing, I was at home all day long. Buong maghapon nakatingin sa monitor, walang magawa sa buhay, inaantay na lumabas sa webcam si casey, LOL! Ang mas nakakaantok pang fact eh ako lang ang naiwan sa loob ng house, 'cause mom went out, sis is at school, and si dad, uh, dunno kung saang lupalop ng mundo sya napunta. So, ayun, in short, mag isa ako sa bahay at walang magawa. And it was very silent too, walang maingay masyado, 'xcept of course, my cat, siguro gutom na kaya ako kinukulit. Well, the day was kinda boring, pero the silence made me think about the little details that we usually ignore during our daily routines. Napansin ko kanina bigla na walang akong pinapatugtog na music kahit suot ko yung earphones ko, maybe I got used to wearing the earphones when using the PC. And I also became aware that I need a haircut, I did'nt notice my hair growing, LOL. Basta, I was just plain bored, just thinking about lots of small things. But one thing I did'nt notice is that I have'nt eaten a meal for the day yet. All I ate was junkfood, so I decided to have a decent meal. Ayun, basta, wala lang magawa. Oh, nag chat din ako ng konte, kaso inantok din ako kase yung ka chat ko hinawaan ako ng pagkaantukin :D. Pero hindi rin ako nakatulog, kase nung dumating sina ma, andami pinautos. Ayan, nawala tuloy siesta ko. /wah

So...eto, inaantok pa rin ako, pero nawawala na, yung antok nagiging sakit ng ulo na. Tsaka gabi na, magsisimula na araw ko, did I ever mention I was a nocturnal being? LOL! And I've got to finish some downloads, so, ciao peepz!

(ay bwiset natapon ung kornik ko)
Reading: ABNKKBSNPLA ko! - Bob Ong
Feeling: sleepy


August 19th, 2004

the normal day that was'nt...
POSTED AT 11:59 PM

All's well that ends well. That describes my day. Umm, well, today was almost the same as yesterday, except that I was a bit more "busy". I finished playing the very hard difficulty of Megaman Legends 2, at class S too (although I got class S after defeating Sera :D, the game was pretty much finished then). Also did a personality test at swirve.com, and found out I was a counselor, plus my possible carreer is a therapist or a tutor, due to my, ahem, perceptive abilities :D (sana totoo). LOL

Well, it was kinda normal today, almost nothing changed...except when I got out tonight. My sis wanted to use the computer, so I gave up my position and went out to play Guilty Gear X2 (I'm pretty good at this game). Syempre ilalabas ko na naman game ko para ma-impress na naman ung ibang naglalaro dun :D. So, after a few rounds of total domination with my fave character, May, I was feeling unstoppable again...that is until this guy tapped my shoulder and asked for a round. Of course, papayag ako, thinking that baka may challenge to. And he did give me one, LOL. That's because this guy's no other than my long-time-no-see best friend, the only one that can beat me at this game. It was a great feeling to see this guy again, I really missed him. Well, actually, he's just a few blocks away from my house, but we can't see each other because of some reasons, well, one of those is schedule, and some other issues I'd rather not say. Anyway, after playing, of course syempre na-miss namin isa't isa, so we went out and nag catch-up sa mga kwento. Gosh, nakaka-miss. We used to talk while walking under the moon almost everyday back then...it's been 7 years since I first met this guy. And the way we met was kinda weird. I was playing in a computer shop, when suddenly I heard some shouting. Syempre, being the nosey guy that I am, tumayo ako and dumungaw. And, ayun, nakita ko si loko, cornered ng mga adik. Hahaha, it's me to the rescue. He almost got stabbed, LOL. Well, we got to know each other, and, well, the rest was history. If I would narrate our escapades and near-death experiences here, It'd be three times the length of the entry I made about my RO guild :D. Let's just say we see each other as blood-brothers. Basta it was a very good feeling, walking under the night sky, catching up with the times, na nauwi sa hiraman ng libro :D. Hahaha, basta, masaya, un na lang...

And, omaygash, I finally caught casey live on-cam! woohoo, kaninang 9 am! Gash, she's heavenly....cge na nga, aagahan ko tulog ko baka mapanaginipan ko si casey...and her....mwahahahha :D

(omaygash nakalimutan ko lagyan ng title LOL)


August 21st, 2004

I hate malls...err, a bit
POSTED AT 01:44 AM

Hahaha, that's because I was short on cash today. Well, I really don't hate malls (baka i-ban ako, nyaaah), ang taas lang nila magpresyo sometimes. My pocket money became a transaction in just a few hours...uh, ehehehe hindi naman ako masyado nagdala, but still...aargh. Ambilis naubos sa arcade, tsk sayang 120 ko, wala pa yata kame isang oras dun sa loob, darnit. From now on I swear I'll never entrer an arcade again. Their prices are just plain murder. Tapos sa bowling alley pa, kinarne ulit yung 100 ko, jushko, para sa tatlong iced tea lang! TATLO! And our plan was supposed to be to watch a movie, but...darn, if we bought some tickets, we would be walking home. Oh well...but the time with my friends was worth it. Tama na rant, nauna tuloy yung reklamo, LOL. Well, wala lang, tumambay lang kame ng best friend ko tsaka isa ko pang very close friend, to catch up with each other, so ayun, hahaha. Uh, basta, medyo magulo ako ngayon kaya magulo din kwento ko, so sensya sa mga nagbasa na nalito :D. Tapos dumeretso pa kami sa house nung friend ko, hahaha kulang na lang beer tsaka pulutan, kala mo nagiinuman na kame. Basta, ang saya, just laughing the night away...haaay...parang summer na tuloy LOL. I miss summer...ganito ako tuwing summer...tambay, tawa, uwi ng late, magulo utak :D...ahh tama na, masyado na magulo entry na 'to, wala akong talino at kasipagan para ayusin LOL, so ciao!


August 26th, 2004

busy, but still smiling
POSTED AT 08:35 AM

Woah, it's been a long time. I missed my tabs :D. I've been busy for these past few days, and so I have'nt managed to check my journal. Hmm, well, lots of things happened in between my last entry and this one...let's see...well, last week, I met up with some old friends again, caught up with the times, especially with my best friend. He changed a lot during the time we did'nt meet, so medyo nanibago ako sa kanya, but still, he was still my best friend, so I'd have to adjust a bit. Last monday, we promised to each other that we'd leave this country together and settle down in europe. I'm just waiting for one more person to come with us on the ride :D. Mwahahaha, us four are back together again, back in business! Hmm, what else...ah, I've been busy because of school work, and also, because I recently became a part of a private server Admin group, thus making me what they call a GM or game master :D. Fun work, but still, kinda stressing. Now I understand why those GMs at level-up! don't appear too much, it's hard avoiding players who want something fixed or are begging for items. Well, at least I get to wear an excellent dragon set+11+24+luck :D.

Hmm, ano pa, uh, oh yeah, medyo dumadami na naman j-pop collection ko, just added Boa on my artist roster (even though I should've done that a long time ago, I just felt Boa was'nt a real j-pop artist yet back then), and some Utada Hikaru songs I forgot to add to my mighty j-music list. Uh, sa sobrang busy ko ngayon, I almost forgot about my kingdom in faitH, so I'll be checking on that too (ironic is'nt it, I'm using computers more often now, yet I can't check my internet accounts...oh well). And then there's her...her again :D. I'll make sure she'd have a chunk of my time cake, hahaha. Finally, my tabulas journal. I think I'd be posting only 3 times a week now. Yes, I am online, but most of the time I would be monitoring the server console, so I can't browse too much. Maybe I can, but only during the night, since I'm a GM during the morning, and a student during afternoon and evening. And of course, I need to sleep :D, so sorry my dear journal. Pero basta, I'll try my best to be online with my YM, at least while monitoring the server, I can chat :D.

Oh well, so much for this entry, my name's bein' called again (stupid events), so ciao!


August 30th, 2004

potpourri :D
POSTED AT 03:04 PM

Nung isang araw, I decided to visit my friend's computer shop, maglalaro sana ako sabay tambay with my friends. So, naglakad ako papunta sa shop. Pagdating ko dun, wala ako masyado kilala, wala yung mga kaibigan ko, naalala ko tuloy na dapat pupunta kami ng mall nung araw na yun, hindi ako nakagising ng maaga T_T. In short, iniwan ako nung mga kumag. Nung tinignan ko kung sino yung nakapwesto dun sa bantay, ang tumambad sa 'king paningin ay isang girl na hindi ko kilala, instead of my friend. Well, hindi ko nga sya kilala, pero so what, and pinunta ko dun is to play, so tinanong ko kung may vacant. Sagot naman nitong girl, wala daw, 2 hours pa yung susunod na tatayo. So nag hintay ako katabi nitong girl na hindi ko kilala. She was beautiful, as in chinita (my type), so I decided to converse with her. Found out her name was Fae, pero dunno kung dahil yun sa mabilis ako or kulang lang talaga sa neurons tong girl na ito. Pero, oh well, kinulit ko pa rin. Hahaha, new record nga eh, 2 hours kame nagkulitan, kahit medyo mababaw :D, and to think dun ko lang cya nakilala. Tapos ayun, nung naka upo na ako, the whole day, sya kasama ko :D. As I've said, maganda sya, kaso, uhm, err, parang bland yung personality, pero, what da heck, type ko sya :D. Ayun, dumating yung barkada ko nung gabi, eh kaso pa uwi na ako. So iniwan ko sila dun...

Kahapon...nagising ako ng mga 8:30 pm dahil sa isang tawag. And guess who, my golly, best friend ko. At napag-alaman ko na kasama nya si Fae at papunta sa bahay ko, nalaman ko na magkakilala na pala sila at balak talaga ipakilala sa kin nitong kumag na 'to si Fae. Haaaay nako...well, sandali lang naman sila, bisita daw kuno...mga 1 hour :D. Well, kung ano mangyayari, mangayari, bahala na si batman.

At ang saya saya, amoy dried flowers yung bahay namin, tong si ma, nag uwi ng gatadtad na potpourri. Nyahehe, la lang, bango eh :D

(mwahaha 2 entries nagawa ko, bawi bawi lang...nde nyo makikita yung isa kung nde kita pren, nyahahaha ;P)


September 1st, 2004

dizzy...
POSTED AT 02:20 AM

Wah, my head hurts. Ewan ko kung bakit...stress lang siguro...

Kawawa si bespren ngayon...tsk tsk tsk...ayun, iniwan ng girlfriend nyang mahal...something about her joining a fraternity/sorority daw, or something, basta...well, syempre eto na naman ako't makikialam. Bakit? Aba'y syempre this is my best friend's happiness at stake, kelangan ko talaga makialam, kung hinde, hay naku...ah basta, bahala na, sakit na naman 'to sa ulo...

Well, ok lang, since nung nag balik yung mga kaibigan ko, lalo na nga tong si bespren, medyo bumabalik na naman yung dati kong saya...parang it's like the good ol' days all over again, happy-go-lucky...uhm, hahaha eto nagagawa ng pagiging single, ang gulo na naman namin. Syempre I'm sad na hindi ko kasama yung taong gusto ko makasama, but, whaddaheck, ngayon ngayon ko lang na realize na single na naman akooooh...hahaha, like stallions on the open field we will be, running free on the green green grass of, uhm, oh yeah, all-girls schools :D! (haaay nako kaya galit sa 'kin yung mga pemenista kong pinsan, masyado daw ako chauvinist pag kinalagan ng kadena :D). Well, syempre, when the time comes na ready na ulit ako to commit, hahaha, watch out na lang yung isa dyan *masamang ngiti*.

...Pero...iggs, tsaket pa rin ng ulo ko...siguro dahil sa sinusundan ako ng amoy ng yosi, ewan ko ba, parang pugon yung mga tao dito kung manigarilyo, kala mo nag-sasaing sa baga...haaay nako, mag-aadvil nga ko, baket? Para sosyal :D.

-edit-

la lang...nakita ko sa bulletin sa friendster, galing din kay evil_kittykat, queen of surveys and quizzes :D.

-Music survey-

1.Mahilig ka ba sa music?
* of course

2. Anong genre ng mga music ang trip mo?
* J-pop and rock

3. Marunong ka bang tumugtog ng
instruments?
*aba, oo naman, gusto mo malaman?

4. Anong kaya mong tugtugin?
* tambourine tsaka maracas :D

5. Anong unang fave song mo?
* hmm...kelan ba ako nagsimula maghilig sa music...ah, yung 'only in my sleep' by the corrs, nung first year high

6. Mhilig ka ba sa boy bands?
* nah

7. eh girl bands?
* that depends...if they're cute, heck, why not?

8. Rock bands?
* depende sa type ng rock na kinakanta nila

9. Mahilig ka bang magcompose ng kanta?
* hahaha, pag ginanahan ako mag freestyle ng kung ano anong ewan

10. Anong favoritie mong Radio Station?
* NU 107

11. Sino fave mong singer/artist?
* Utada Hikaru, BoA, Michelle Branch, Linkin park, Evanescence, Kyla, and Slapshock

12. Bakit naman?
* like, duh, malamang gusto ko yung mga kanta nila :D

13. Ano fave song mo ngayon?
* Hmm, nde ko actually fave, pero, song ko ngayon is 'not your ordinary girl' by kyla

14. Bakit?
* hahaha nakakarelate ako dun sa ibang parts :D

15. Ilang Audio CD's meron ka?
* I don't keep CD's too much...siguro 5 or six...ung sixpence none the richer, evanescence, linkin park, slipknot...basta nakalimutan ko na

16. Eh marunong ka ba namang kumanta?
* Baka ipakita ko score ko sa sing along at magulat kayo lahat...aba kaboses ko daw si alex band...mwahehehe

17. Hindi ka ba nakakatulog pag walng
music?
* depende

18. Kelangan mo pa ba ng Music pag
nagaaral?
* syempre, para hindi ako mainip habang "nag-aaral"

19. Lagi ka bang may "Last Song
Syndrome"?
* depende sa song

20. Anong kanta ang pinaka-ayaw mo?
* yung mga ewan na novelty songs sa US

21. Bkit naman?
* nakakainis yung pagmumukhang tanga nila

22. Mahilig ka ba magdownload ng kanta?
* yeah, kaso tinanggal ko yung p2p sa system ko, lakas makapasok ng mga sinumpang spyware

23. MTV or MYX?
* MYX...andun si heart...kaso nasa MTV si sarah meier...well, whaddaheck, why not have 'em both?

24. Ano ang pinaka-favorite mong
soundtrack?
* FFX-2

25. Your top 10 most favorite songs

1. Utada Hikaru - Hikari
2. Utada Hikaru - Distance
3. Rivermaya - Balisong
4. Goo goo dolls - Iris
5. D'sound - Tatooed on my mind
6. Koda Kumi - Real Emotion
7. Moonstar 88 - Torete
8. Slapshock - Without you
9. Evanescence - Whisper
10. Slipknot - Wait and bleed
Listening to: Travelling - Utada Hikaru
Feeling: a headache...


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