memories of a glorious past and a great dream...
POSTED AT 07:01 PM

Blacksword

my writing's messed up, 'cause there's so much to tell, so before you get confused, please accept my apologies for those who get headaches due to reading this to the full

Maybe it's a bit too late. but I think it's still ok to do it. I mean the revival of the Shadow Moses guilds in Chaos, my RO family. ah sweet memories. we were very large then, reaching to about 8 guilds in chaos and one extension in Loki. sure, all the talk then was about the UT, steel wolves, GRyodan, and the revs, but next to these so-called top guilds were us, and a few other aspiring guilds, like the shadow maidens, Blue Rogues (our rival), P3X infinity (P3X was an ally back then) and other guilds. I was the guildmaster of Shadow II. you may not have heard of us, that's because we usually stay away from pvp and those areas packed with people. most of the time we prefer to stay at GH (waaaay before the healbomb got discovered, assasins and blacksmith were free to roam at the churchyard back then) or other areas less known to the masses, like coal mines and sphinx (I used to be alone in level 4 most of the time in the past). I really miss the guilds, not only because we had teamwork, but because my guildmates were very close to each other, even though we don't see each other in RL. it was almost like the RO world was real when I'm with my guildmates. we go shopping in prontera together, group dates and weddings in lutie, guild meetings in the sanctuary, and lots of other stuff. we almost made RO into OZ. but of course, we did'nt forget the game side of RO. as I've mentioned, we went to places even most 2nd job people don't know about back then. we party together, share and give items other guildmates need, and of course, leveling up the guild. We were one of the few (I emphasize on the word few) guilds who got to level 2 even way before the pet system got enabled. with 2% tax each member (and half of the time angelcakes would take on 50%, just for kicks), we earned millions of exp, just to get to level 2, unlike the present system, wherein the exp requirement needed to level the guild was reduced. reaching level 2 was quite a feat back then, and many players, knowing we were one of the few who did that, were attracted to join our guild, most of the time high level ones. Shadow IV, I heard, even managed to reach level 4 (kudos to Mae'var and his crew). but the best part of our guild was the bond between each member of the guild (well, most of them). in shadow 2, we had 13 members (including myself) called the "solid 13", 'cause they never left the guild. we 13 had reached the closest possible bonding between persons who only met in a game. the other 3 spots were filled up by level 90+ players who were good members to have but they were kinda cold. our involvement in our beloved guild reached the point that we took a shot at creating our own guild website. we did almost complete the site, and it was quite an achievement, noting that we guildmates worked on the site without even meeting each other in real live, cooperating with each other from a distance. If you saw the ragnarok page of level-up-games.com before it was changed, our link was there in the fansites list, remaining until the layout of the site was changed even though our site was already down. however we only managed to fill up 3/4 of the page for shadow 2, 1/4 for shadow IV, and the GM's bio for shadow dragons. unfortunately, I shut down the site because most of the extensions are'nt cooperating, especially shadow 3 and the shadow mistresses (the all-girls extension ^_^). maybe it was for the best too, since our host was buggy and most of the time our site was down. oh, wait, I'm forgetting something. Our humble begginings (sorry if I'm writing incoherently right now, tons of memory are rushing into my mind when I think of the shadow guilds). I was a member of the original Shadow Moses?, led by our guildmaster snakezero. a long time friend in RO, ice07man, invited me to join. I had a great time in the guild, even though few members were active and snake had to kick those pesky members. after a few weeks, I decided to create an extension guild, I still remember it was in orc ville, right after I got the emperium ordered by snake. after I created the guild, the rest was history. my first member was iceman, then followed shortly by randomly selected guys from the immediate vicinity ^_^. one such member was A T O M O S. he was a mage then. I never expected him to be the only member of the guild who stayed from beggining to end. almost all of the first members were either kicked or left the guild. well, good riddance, since most of them were jologs anyway, and they were randomly selected too, so they were'nt such a loss. after a few days, I met this guy Mae'var again. again, because back when I was a thief, I fought together with him in a party with a name we will never forget, and that which I will not utter here (R-18 po ung name, green joke but still R-18). this time, Mae'var joined the guild, both of us not knowing that we were playing at the same shop at the same time, until I stood up and saw that the guy at the row behind me was him! 'twas a good moment, he proved to be a good follower and, soon after, a great guildmaster. after that, I had more members joining. shadowlion removed from shadow I to our guild, bringing with him his RL girlfriend, angelcakes (one of the most memorable members, since she played better than her boyfriend, and she was the only member who had 2 characters in the guild. plus, she was one of the greatest RO friends you could possibly have). both were a great addition to the shadow II roster, since they were both strong assasins, and were very good chat mates. sugar, as her mage-to-be-wizard, also joined. there was also slayer, the heartrob (in RL) assasin who soon left us because he went home to laguna (sadly, no RO there back then). but before he left, he turned over his slot to Masakari, the job 50 blacksmith, and the rukawa of the guild, since he rarely talked, but a good friend nonetheless (soon after, he got talkative when his rival blacksmith entered the guild, more on that later). Holy Angel, the crazy kid priest whom I met in a shop, later became the guildmaster of Shadow III. Red Knight25, my classmate and friend, also joined, later forming the fifth extension, Shadow Dragons. and then there was Felouen, my RO wife. I met her in payon level 4, and since then, the guild was never the same. the soft side of my power-hungry, hardcore gaming guildmaster persona was exposed, due the endless sweet talk between me and my dear Fel. through dungeons, towns, sitting sessions, and lag, we exchanged cheesy dialoges with each other, not minding the other guildmates. but of course, it was RO love, not in RL. were we to meet in RL, we would only be friends. again, Ice07man was there, my first RO friend, we met way back when pRO was still starting (I think that was in may, only 300+ players then), and ATOMOS, the ever-loyal wizard. he had many stories connected to him, one was, which every guild member knew, the legend of 1-HP atomos and the savage poring. I guess, from the title, you'd know already what that meant. R?n?s? also proved to be one of the most loyal, since I knew him personally, together with his RL girlfriend annejho, who soon left the guild because she stopped playing RO. also there was Phil, another wizard. he too was a loyal member, and we had the memory of chatting together while I was enjoying a free 15min demo play right during the ragnafest last september 2003 in glorieta 4. lots of famous players were watching from my back me and phil chat. haha those were the memories. these members were the first batch of the loyal members of shadow 2. the second batch came when we were at the peak of our strength, full extensions, shadow 2, 4 and 5 had reached level 2, and we had our site running. Mae'var left the guild to create a new extension, shadow moses IV:Judgement. Red Knight left also to form the Shadow Dragons. at that time we were 6 guilds strong and we had an application instruction page on the site. my e-mail was getting flooded with requests from players who want to join our guild. soon, we grew to 8 guilds, and shadow 2 had new drafts, since some slots were open. these members were the 2nd loyal batch, joining to form the so-called "solid 13". there was wize1, my classmate, who joined us very shortly since he started playing. he grew strong pretty fast, and was the hunter we always took to pvp, beating even members of the untouchables in 1on1. by this time, Ice07man relinquished his slot to his alternate character, a priest named Lucifer07. R?n?s also changed characters, abandoning his knight in favor of his new hunter pieceofcake. then there was elvish. he was the crown of the glory of shadow 2. he was a pure forger that can't fight, so he had to pay people to boost him. he was recruited by sugar, with the promise that we would boost him so that he could level up. and he did level up, thanks to me, wize1, angelcakes, and the other members. he was the rival of masakari, who was a battle forger. they kept arguing, not because they were arguing over something, but because they were fighting for attention and glory. In short, nagpapasikatan sila sa harap namin. away sila ng away, paramihan ng alam tungkol sa ragnarok, and lagi silang nagpapalakas sa kin. but fortunately, their rivalry did'nt become personal, and soon, hindi na lang sila nag pansinan, since medyo suplado tlaga si masakari, and elvish was busy making money. and elvish was very successful in that. he rivalled the pronteran blacksmiths in forging and riches, boosting the fame of our guild, since he carried the name and the logo of shadow 2. soon, we were swamped with more requests from players who want to join. but unfortunately, the decay of the guild was already starting. shadow I was already disbanded, snakezero left to join the steel wolves. there was no new news from shadow 3 and dragons. maybe it was partly because of my fault. I was too power hungry, kicking anyone who was'nt active at the time I appointed. mabye it was because we were losing in guild vs guild, especially to our rivals. a couple of months later, we were losing our track, and soon, I took the site down. soon, even felouen was reprimanding me for being too harsh in punishment, that I was too eager to level up the guild even though it was'nt even comodo. but I think the last stroke against shadow II was when we were challenged by a freakingly weak guild to pvp. now, I was eager to fight, partly because it was an opportunity to show our power, partly because I was annoyed by this particular guild. so I summoned anyone who was active that day. unfortunately, only 2 hearkened, balitaw the spear knight, and wize1. the others were busy with whatever they were getting busy with. blind with anger, I went to pvp with only 2 members behind me. what followed was utter loss. we faced an almost-whole guild, about 10 of them. we managed to nail down 5, but we still got beaten to a pulp. we were shouting unfair, but they only laughed. after that, the news of our defeat spread within the guilds. we wanted retaliation, but I said no more. we were'nt capable of facing guilds in pvp if the members can't follow a simple summons order. besides, most of the original and loyal members were'nt active anymore, just taking up space in the guild roster. and I can't find replacements good enough to replace the friendship and bonds we had. that day, I was kinda down too due to personal problems. all these factors led to my decision; to disband the guild and break our fellowship. soon after, I sold my account, vowing never again to play RO. the rest of the extension guilds soon fell one by one afterwards, as told to me by my friends, until only Shadow IV, Mae'var's guild, remained. he tried to continue our dream a bit longer, slowly nursing the hurts we had, and even attempted to rebuild the guild site, but in the end even they were broken. I don't know if it was my fault, but I guess I had part in the failure of our guilds.

now, I am breaking my vow. I had to admit, I regret ever disbanding the guild, which was'nt only a guild, it was like breaking up a family. now, even though it's too late, I'm reliving the dream. late is better than never. maybe I can find friends again inside the present chaos server, which has turned cold and unfriendly, filled with bots and 99-crazy players who just want to make a character who has lights around it. maybe I can repent and go back to the past. now I have recovered my account from the buyer, Black Sword ressurected. I only hope that the ressurection of Black Sword will be the first of many ressurections to follow, including the guilds of shadow moses.

these next parts are kinda stupid (and reeeeaaallly cheesy), but I'm sure somewhere, somehow, my old friends will pass by my tabs and read this. I really feel it, it's like a feeling that something's going to start again. so, here goes...

snakezero, thank you for starting the dream and baptizing the fellowship with our brand. you started it all. I just hope you do well in the steel wolves.

Ice, you were the first person I knew in RO. even though we took our own ways, I really feel we will cross paths again, soon.

sugar, sis kaw ung nagpasimuno na gumawa ako ng guild. now, you alone survived. if time and class sched allows, I hope you could become a part of our dream reborn again.

shadowlion and angelcakes, musta sa DLSU? if you read this, and I hope you do, I really expect you'd be the ones to help me rebuild the dream again. especially the guild tax ^_^.

Felouen, we shared something unique in RO. I hope the next time we meet, possibly in Loki, we'll still share that something together. the memories in lutie chapel will always be remembered by me.

Mae'var, you were my protogee, and one of the few people who can revive the dream. Thank you for the equipment you gave me to start anew. I know we can still do this, and hopefully, ung account mo sa friendster for our guild will fill up someday with our members.

atom, masakari, phil, elvish, and all the other guys, without you, the dream we once lived in would'nt be possible. you are the dream, the tightest bond of friendship we can possibly have, in the light that we even don't know each other personally. we can hold on to that for the rest of our lives, even though you might say this was just a game, still it was a great honor and privilege to have shared game time with you guys. if chance allows, possibly, we might share the same guild together again. when that happens, this time we will dominate rune-midgard! ^_^

ahh, such memories. virtual to most people, but to me, and maybe to my guildmates, it was real. think about it; joy, happines, pain, grief, shock, emnity, anger, and laughter. very human elements placed inside a virtual playground. although these elements are channeled through a game, still it retains its human side. and so I deem them real, whatever other people's opinion may be, and these memories will be remembered as to memories outside the virtual world of ragnarok online. and so, I continue the dream that our guilds shared, while hoping that one day we can regain the past that we have lost, and enjoy the game in content. ciao peeps!

I feel like a highschool girl....iggs...
POSTED AT 11:05 PM

Blacksword

'coz someone just slipped a love note inside my organizer....iggs.......iggs.....did I just use biolink or ponds facial wash last night? that's the supposed effect right? now I know what karel feel like...maybe I should put up a commercial for people to guess who sent me the note. I have 2 suspects right now, 'coz these two girls' motives are very obvious already. oh well, at least I know someone thinks I'm handsome aside from my mom ^_^.

btw, I feel bad right now. playing faitH (an online game), just when I'm getting to fission so I can choose gigax already, suddenly dragonclawstudio.com announces Era VIII's about to end! damnit! everything I worked hard upon's gonna get reset! damn...just when I'm starting to decimate all my neighbor's armies....*grumble*

onga pla....BLACK SWORD LIVES!!! finally, after almost a year of inactivity, I managed to squeeze 50 Php into my budget for my good ol' alter ego in the pRO world. ahh, sweet nostalgia. I almost shed a tear when I finally saw my assasin again. now the ressurection begins!
Listening to: smells like team spirit - Nirvana
Feeling: nostalgic and sentimental

ilagan ng ilagan...99 agi tau lahat ngaun ah...
POSTED AT 11:49 PM

Blacksword

wala lang, parang lahat ng tao nagiilagan ngaun. well, you see lahat ng gusto kumausap sa kin or may kailangan sa kin, iniiwasan ko (tinatamad ako makipagsosyalan ngaun, I was practically alone the whole day...well approachable naman ako kaso parang gusto ko talaga mang-iwas kanina eh, dami kasi umiiwas sa kin). tapos lahat ng gusto ko kausapin or makita, nawawala, well probably umiiwas din sa enkwentro. bad trip kc ako ngaung araw eh. la ung mga taga-baste ngaun, may nightcamp daw sila or whatever, ewan ko sa kanila. so la ung mga friends ko sa tambayan ko ngaun. ung friend ko tuloy na kasama ko the other day iniiwasan ko kc sigurado bad trip sa kin un. tinakasan ko eh, e pano ba naman ayaw ako pauwiin, happy hour pa daw. eh wala akong gana nun eh, so takas kme nung kasama ko. kaninang umaga hanap cya sa kin, lahat na ng message pinadala sa kin, YM, friendster, myspace, text, tapos nagpabilin pa kay kuya ed. gleng ko umilag no? tapos ung mga classmate kong JFINMA officers inilagan ko din, kc gusto nila bukas kasama ako sa classroom integration nung mga freshmen, eh ayaw ko, ilag na naman. pati ung mga barkada ko dun sa dati kong tambayan hinanap ako eh, di kc ako nagpakita ng matagal sa kanila. message sila sa kin, miss na daw nila ako. hehe sabi ko sa kanila ano ako girlfriend nyo? ilag ulit! saya....

kaso ung mga gusto ko rin kausapin parang iniiwasan din ako eh. ung classmate ko sa IBE01 parang ayaw ako kausapin, iwas ng iwas. ung ka group ko din sa FIL umiilag din, dedma nya ako. parang ghost town yung ptnt kanina, parang ako lang yung customer sa tambayan ko. and to top it off, parang may umiiwas sa kin na isa jan~ la na cya ********* ng ** sa **** nya pra di ko mlaman kung ****** cya...and on *** cya ngaun...so wala ako kausap ngaun. parang deliberate nga eh. so I reaaaaally felt veeery unimportant kanina. tapos karamihan pa ng nakausap ko kanina plinastik lang ako...well kung ayaw nmn nila makipag usap, prankahin na lang nila ako, kasi I'm a frank person.

Di naman ako magagalit eh, it means something's wrong if someone does'nt want to talk. So if you're one of those people I'm talking about, better wipe that plastic smile off your face or I'll wipe it off for you....whew, that was a bit hostile, but really, it hurts when someone shows you a false front just so he/she won't come off bad. Then iiwas sa yo. Don't you think I know you really don't want to talk even though you seem to go with the conversation. Don't make me look stupid. Tell me you don't want to encounter me and I'll bug off. I'll go, just tell, even if it's about something bad that I did, I won't care; it's my fault, violating your precious peace of mind. So at least you'll be doing us both a favor and leave both our minds at peace. You're not a flight steward or a bank teller to be forced to show a fake smile or to be very accomodating to someone you really don't want to talk to or even look at. Again, just tell me you don't want to talk, you're being disturbed, your precious time is being wasted. I won't get angry if it's true, after all, I'm invading your time. So, sorry for your time wasted (no sarcasm), I'll let you be.

so, sorry if that was a bit rude, but...then again, bato bato sa langit, ang tamaan, wag magagalit. magalit ka na lang pag ako na ang nambato ^_^.

I'm a busy ruler, off with your head!
POSTED AT 03:54 PM

Blacksword

Medyo busy ako ngayong week. dami gagawin kaya parang wala masyadong time for some things (including updating my tabs, tagal ko na rin balak gumawa ng bagong layout pero no time T_T), pero I still manage to squeeze time to relax, so ok lang. Dami ko rin pupuntahan ngayong week, lalo na sa friday and saturday, malas nga eh, kase gusto ko manuod sa friday ng integration ng mga freshman. E kaso may "field trip" pa kami ng mga ka-group ko sa history. Pupunta kami sa mga historical sites tsaka mga museum para sa report namin. Well, medyo exciting na rin kase minsan lang ako mapunta sa mga ganun eh, so ok na rin. Dami pa naman first year na darating sa beda next year eh. Besides, 2 lang kaming boys sa 6 members ng group namin, puros girls ang kasama namin, so enjoy din ^_^.

Anyway, lapit na rin next era opening ng faitH, sa july 18, kaya excited na excited ako. Lalo na ngayon na ragnarok week, experimental week para sa lahat ng mga players. Daming libre, tumaas tuloy power score ko up to about 110K. Syempre dapat ako pinakapowerful kase ako ang king sa kingdom namin, kaya dapat lang ako pinakamataas ang power score. Hehehe, dami ko nang players na tinanggalan ng account (mga talunan sa giyera ay nabuburahan ng account pag talagang obliterated yung province nila). Wish ko lang, sana next era ako ulit iboto nilang king, para inspired ako magpalakas.
Listening to: Mr. Clay - Bamboo
Feeling: excited

Ragnarok Online Advanced 2nd Jobs!
POSTED AT 11:29 PM

Blacksword

-WARNING-Spoiler alert ahead-WARNING-

Well, just found this on the net last week. Quite a shock, in my opinion. To reach this status, (RUMOR) you must reach level 99 and send a notification to the gm team that you wish to change. HOWEVER, 99-level players need not be excited yet. The patch for this has not yet reached our own pRO. Even kRO does'nt have it yet, at least for the normal servers. But I hear it's already being tested in the iRO sakray server. Well, if you're an iRO sakray player, balitaan mo naman kami! Anyway, here's the screenshot:



If you want a bigger-sized image, check my gallery, it's posted there.

My Piece on this: Half-excited lang ako. Medyo natatakot na naman ako sa mga level 99. Aside from lalakas pa sila, lalo silang yayabang, parang aura din lang yang advanced 2nd jobs na yan, extra pogi points lang, IMO. Besides, wala akong balak magpa-level 99, dahil hindi naman na ako adik ngayon sa pRO, and hindi rin ako power player. So, bahala na si batman kung aabot sa pilipinas yang patch na yan. Ay, onga pala, testing phase pa lang yan as of now, so kahit korea wala pa nyan. Kaya sa mga hoping na dadating dito yan: wag muna kayo umasa. Antayin nyo muna matapos ung Amatsu at Gonryun events, tapos antayin nyo na rin yung Umbala patch (ala comodo) bago dumating yang advanced 2nd jobs na yan. Well, siguro naman by that time sawa na kayo sa ragnarok ^_^.
Feeling: nababaliw sa YuGiOh

One of the best history projects I've ever done...
POSTED AT 08:50 PM

Blacksword

Yesterday...damn, I wish I could repeat yesterday. Yesterday was so great, I was so happy I started the day early. Mula sa beda hanggang sa puerto real, ang saya. Well, yesterday, I was supposed to go with my groupmates (who were my barkada, kami kami din nag grupo eh) to some historical sites in manila for our philhist project. We were supposed to meet at 12 noon sa beda, but I was there 8am, since yesterday was the integration rites of the freshmen. Hehehe, ang saya, sarap gaguhin nung mga freshmen, lalo na yung mga girls. However, we did'nt hold the first leg of the integration inside the classrooms, 'cause the master integrators wanted to avoid what happened last year, kase hindi nila kami ma-monitor so kung ano ano ung mga nangyari na hindi sanctioned nung mga advisers. So we did it this time sa quad. Ok din, kaso naghalo halo ung mga sigaw ng mga integrators, di na marinig nung mga freshmen ung mga utos namin. After the quad, lumabas muna ako para maglaro sa tambayan, tapos bumalik din ako right before magsimula yung mendiola run. Sakto pagdating ko, naka linya na sa front gate ung mga seniors, stills and videocams in hand, waiting for the outrush of the freshies, in stupid indian costumes syempre, to run around the mendiola circuit while cheering for san beda. Hehehe, syempre I was there taking videos with my handy cellphone (na magiging handy din mamaya). After the mendiola run, I met up with my barkada sa jolibee...

Kaso ang tagal ni helen. 12 ang usapan, dumating sya, mga 3. So us four (ako, si mike, si jona, and si helen;wala si rona, dunno why) started off towards the nat. museum at 3. We took a cab, tapos pag dating namin sa loob, bumili ng ticket. Saya mag ikot sa loob ng museum, it's like a field trip pero better kase walang tour na sinusundan, so pakalat kalat kame sa loob, parang mga bata ^_^. We met with some students from nueva ecija na nag field trip din dun. Eh since we need some notes, and we did'nt write any, since we were too busy having fun inside the museum, kung ano ano pinapakialaman, taking pics with my celphone ('cause bawal ang flash photography sa loob, so buti na lang dala ko cel ko), and playing with the exhibits (walang tourguide eh, so tambol dito, buhat don...), "nakihiram" ako ng notes from those students. Well, ok lang naman daw, so I got it from them and took off. After we went out, we were to go to fort santiago. Eh walang taxi, puro puno, and we did'nt know any routes going to the fort, so when we saw a kalesa, we took it. Now this was the bad part. The jock said a ride costs 50 php. We thought he ment 50 php for us four. So we said yes, and rode the kalesa. Tuwang tuwa pa sila helen tsaka si jona, kanta pa sila ng kanta, while I was pretending to be a foreigner na ngayon lang nakasakay ng kalesa. So, when we reached the fort, we handed 50 php to the jock. But then he said the rate was 50 per head. We were quite shocked but then we still paid 'cause we thought that was the usual rate. After they rode off, biglang lapit naman sa min tong isang bobong guardia civil, sinabihan kame na ba't daw ganun ang binayad namin, eh na rip-off daw kame. Bad trip kame lahat non oh, na lecturan pa kame tuloy nung mga guards. After that, we went on. Kaso naabutan naman kami ng ulan sa loob, so before we went inside the fort, tambay muna kame sa isang kiosk. Sarap din tumambay sa loob, very relaxing, sabay ulan pa, so ang ganda ng atmosphere para tumambay. After an hour or so, we went inside the fort. We took pictures with my still cam (na maarte kase hindi cya kumukuha in the dark, may auto-adjust ewan kase eh), historical markers like the final footsteps rizal took to luneta, the rajah sulayman theater, rizal shrine, the dungeons, the pasig exit, the statue of rizal, the battlements, and the entrance to fort santiago (by the way, lahat nung mga attractions sarado, so we just took a pic of the historical markers). After we finished, lumabas na kame, because we were supposed to go to manila cathedral next, kaso umulan na naman! This time we were caught in the rain, so nabasa kame. We ran to the place we stayed before, at tumambay ulit. But the stay was well worth it. There was a live orchestra playing instrumentals of the cheesiest love songs you have ever heard. Pero it was very very very nice, combined with the setting sun and the mild rain, plus the quiet atmosphere, it was the most romantic setting I have ever seen. Basta, this was one of the greatest feelings I have experienced, and once I propose to my loved one, I'd make sure we would be there right at a similar moment like that. After the orchestra finished playing, we got up and went to Manila cathedral. The next places were'nt as memorable as fort santiago, pero when we got to puerta isabel, another kind of fun began. It was already 8pm, and it was very dark, due to the rainclouds. After taking pics of the letran building, we went through puerta isabel. There was a yard in front of it, and in the middle there was a big tree (dunno what tree it is). Helen was already getting scared, we were like in a scariest places on earth episode. Suddenly, a bum came out from nowhere and passed through us. Helen ran behind me and pulled me out of the yard towards mike and jona. I was laughing so hard, seeing helen like that. Sabi ko kay helen, ang cute mo pala pag natatakot ka. Mike and jona laughed. Well, after that, we proceeded to look for our last destination, and that was puerta real. We were arguing on the way whether it was puerto or puerta. I told them maybe puerta's for females, since isabel was a girl, so real must be a guy (although that did'nt help). So, since we can't find puerto (or puerta) real ourselves, kumuha kami ng padyak at pinahanap sa kanila yung puerta (or puerto) real. We found out that it was actually puerta, not puerto, by the way. Once we got there, we went towards the gate immediately, since gusto na rin namin umuwi. The place was very eerie, I was walking alone towards the arch with the 2 girls far behind me. I got mike, helen and jona to pose under the arch of puerta real. Suddenly, jona ran toward me screaming, saying that someone or something was moving behind her, and that she'd pass the shot. So I took a picture of the arch with only mike and helen in the shot. After that, we went on inside, but since it was a dead end after the yard, we decided to take a last shot inside the yard. There was a tunnel near the right wall of the yard, and I had jona pose there. It was dark inside the tunnel, we could'nt see what's there, and we can't get in because the gate was locked. So, right before taking the shot, we felt a sudden gust of wind. Jona ran away from the gate again, saying she'd have no more. So I had helen pose again, right in front of the tunnel. I took the shot. After that, we hurriedly left the place, not looking at the dark tunnel (actually, I was freaked out by that tunnel too, I just did'nt show it), running under the arch, until we reached the sidewalk. We were laughing/catching our breath at the same time. It was fun, but we decided never to return there at night.

Puerto real was the last destination. We had all the shots we needed, so we decided it was time to go home. Jona rode with me. After we said goodbye to mike and helen, we rode off. We passed by the nat. museum, so Jona said I should take one more shot of the building. But the camera was so maarte that we could't take a decent shot of the museum. Oh well, I said, at least I have shots INSIDE the museum, no one can beat that.

I got home at about 10:30pm, tired and wet, but still happy. I never thought history projects could be this fun. I laid down, wishing for another history project like that. And then, as if I my wish suddenly came true, Jona sent me a message, saying that our final exam would be a trip to corregidor, bataan with our group! Oh yeah!

I'm so senti today...*sniff*
POSTED AT 11:21 AM

Blacksword

Wala lang, been listening to hikki-san's songs yesterday. Napakinggan ko lang ung Final Distance, looked up the english lyrics, and found out nakaka-relate ako right now sa song na 'to, so I really had to post the song here.

Final Distance (English Translation)

Can't you see I am needing you now
But you're no where to be found
My heart it aches, to be near to you

Darling don't you leave me behind
We've come so far to end this soon
Can't you feel the love that I have for you?

You kept on telling me
To "Keep it going baby"
Why can't you just close your eyes and
See me inside?
Tell me, do you love me baby?
Your games are just tearing me apart
It's breaking up my heart
Because

I wanna be with you now
Through all this distance we'll make it through
And I know this love is forever
We can start over and remember
The love we had cause
I wanna be with you now
Cause all of this distance is tearing us apart
And you know this love is forever
We can start sooner my darling
I wanna be with you

It hurts me so to hear your voice
Silent in the evening air
I can kiss the pain away from you

I know it's not too late
To keep on trying baby
Just hold on I know we'll make it
If we try to
Trust me, do you love me baby?
Your games are just tearing me apart
It's breaking up my heart
Because

I wanna be with you now
Through all this distance we'll make it through
And I know this love is forever
We can start over and remember
The love we had cause
I wanna be with you now
Cause all of this distance is tearing us apart
And you know this love is forever
We should stay together my darling
I need to be with you.


...*pabulong* tablan k nmn!...LOL

Lazy...Lazy...zzzz
POSTED AT 01:59 PM

Blacksword

I'm feeling so lazy this week. Dunno why, basta I'm so lazy this week. Maybe it's because I wanna play more than study this week. Or is it because lagi akong puyat ngayong week. Lagi kasi ako ginagabi ng uwi eh, stuck lagi sa tambayan, LOL. Chat, gunbound, chat, gunbound, tapos konting faitH. Oh, the era just started, ang angas ng na chance ko na avatar! Tapos ako pa ginawang shadow master ng KD namin, so ok lang kahit hindi ako na vote na king. Then there was teh YM. Nabaliw me sa YM ngaun, si rika kc eh. Pero in fairness sarap nmn cya kausap eh, kaso lagi nya ako vini-victim T_T. Ahh basta next time huhulihin din kita....mwahahaha!

Nothing exciting to post this week, except that thing about the new era on faitH, but I guess no one here plays it, right? Oh, well then this week's very sleepy, naubos pa lahat ng supplies ko sa bahay, so para akong caveman ngayon, LOL. Cge peeps, tulog ulit me, ciao!
Reading: Ticket ng LRT
Listening to: Hikari, what else.

do we have to be burned?
POSTED AT 10:55 AM

Blacksword

Well, I've been in this "feminist" site through a friend's blogs. The link was for a quiz called "Do you need a boyfriend?". I checked the quiz out, then the other quizzes. The other quizzes were'nt special, but this one quiz caught my eye. It's the "Militant Feminist Quiz". Check it out here . Now, this one's very extreme. I never thought feminists hated men that much. Now, I'm gonna say my piece on this one.

Why do women have to hate men? Do they need to kick us in the groin, pour kerosine on us, and set us on fire? Do they have to form groups that protest against men's actions? Us men never thought about women that way. I want some girls to answer those questions. Look, from the way feminists act, I say they are'nt asking for equality, they're asking for dominance over men. Men love women, they don't really want to turn women into slaves (well, only a few do, but they're crazy. A normal guy would'nt do that). Only unrefined guys are rude to women. So, I'm reminding wanna-be feminists that your fight is against the uneducated and unrefined men. Don't generalize us guys. Just because some men are rude to you does'nt mean all guys are like that. Even us don't like rude men. We usually put them in jail . And don't think chivalry is dead. It's very much alive, ladies. It's just that feminist actions for equality are killing it. And one more thing: We never thought about a world without women, or kicking them in the groin, pouring kerosine on them, and setting them on fire. Never, ever. Unlike those feminists who want to kill us off, or put us to slavery. Now who's the unfair side? You be the judge .

(LOL, I'm gonna be burned! Flamed and Burned! /omg)
Feeling: Bad trip sa keyboard

the deep breath before the plunge...
POSTED AT 06:05 PM

Blacksword

These past weeks were a bit sleepy. Nothing much to do, so I had plenty of time on my hands to relax and to play. However, the coming weeks would be very much different. It's the time when the teachers finally show their fangs. So before I take their bites, I'm gonna take my remaining time to relax and to arrange my very scattered thoughts. It's, as I call it, the deep breath before the plunge. It's the time in our curriculum when academic and extra-curricular activities mix together, deliberately or by chance, to confuse the already confused students. Poor us, LOL. Less time to play, lesser time to chat, and even lesser time to arrange my journal. Oh well.

After a few hours of internet, I slept a bit, then I stayed in bed after waking up. I felt the bedsheets and remembered my mom. She always arranged my bed for me after I left for school. Staring into the ceiling, thinking about lots of things, then relaxing my mind with classical music, it was a good feeling. I admit, I'm very confused with a lot of things right now. It even reflected when I chat with some friends, and when I talk with my barkada. Now, having a bit of quiet inside my room relaxed my mind a bit. It was very nice, just trying to empty my mind of troubling thoughts. Just having a bit of quiet really made me feel ready for the weeks to come. Or at least I hope I am. Well, as the saying goes, bahala na. What would be will be.

Oh, by the way, just downloaded Astro by radioactive sago project. Damn it's one of the hilarious songs I've ever seen. Better hear it for yourselves. Ciao peepz.
Listening to: Astro - Radioactive Sago

B-R-E-A-K-U-P
POSTED AT 03:33 PM

Blacksword

I'm really feeling down right now. Really confused too. Too many things inside my head, really makes me feel confused. Right now I don't know what to do with my life, lots of things that need to be taken care of. So, eto, sabog na naman ako, due to one thing I don't wanna remember right now. Just need to forget...but, goddamnit, nothing's helping me forget. Ayoko na, this is too much. I wish someone hit me in the head and give me amnesia. But that "event" was'nt too much of a shock; I already knew what's going on. These are the times when you know what and who are those whom you can really depend on. Your closest friends, some booze, and a bar in katipunan, LOL.

(but at least sa wakas naka alis din ako sa kapit nya...mwahahah)

my first survey...'cause there's nothing to do...
POSTED AT 10:54 PM

Blacksword

I AM: a very stylish fashion girl....wahehehe
I WANT: to be the president of the philippine republic
I HAVE: paradise inside my room
I WISH: I could turn back time
I HATE: to hate
I FEAR: God, in a respecful way
I HEAR: sounds, duh
I SEARCH: for something that I don't know
I WONDER: how we came to be
I REGRET: being irresponsible and careless
I LOVE: my darker side
I ALWAYS: think random thoughts
I AM NOT: a social person
I DANCE: when there's no one around
I SING: when I come into contact with water ^_^
I CRY: when there's a reason to
I NEED: a reality check
I SHOULD: start putting my thoughts into place

YES or NO:

YOU KEEP A DIARY: YES, only it's a weblog, though
YOU LIKE TO COOK: YES
YOU HAVE A SECRET YOU HAVE NOT SHARED WITH ANYONE: YES
YOU BELIEVE IN LOVE: YES

THE WEIRDEST PERSON YOU KNOW: next to me? hmm, my friends siguro
THE LOUDEST PERSON/s YOU KNOW: our class president when I was in third year high
THE SEXIEST PERSON YOU KNOW: Anna Leah Javier
CuTEST PERSON YOU KNOW: hmmm, may tabulas cya eh, di ko sasabihin ^_^
CLOSEST FRIENDS: they already left me, but yeah, I had some
THE PERSONS THAT KNOWS THE MOST ABOUT YOU: no one. I lie when I tell someone about my "real" self
DO YOU HAVE A CRUSH: not right now
WANT TO GET MARRIED: not right now
GET MOTION SICKNESS: sa LRT, pag hindi pa umaandar
THINK YOURE A HEALTH FREAK: not really
GET ALONG WITH YOUR PARENTS: only with my mom
LIKE THUNDERSTORMS: when I'm inside
CURRENT HAIR COLOR: black, duh
EYE COLOR: black-brown
BIRTHPLACE: MCH, manila

FAVORITES

NUMBER: 12
Color: Black
DAY: Friday
MONTH: January
FOOD: anything deep fried
SPORT/s: basketball and/or chess (if that's a sport)
DRINK: syempre water

IN THE LAST 24 HRS, HAVE YOU...
CRIED?: NO
HELPED SOMEONE?: kind of
BOUGHT SOMETHING?: everyday dude
GOTTEN SICK?: no
GONE TO THE MOVIES?: I wish...
GONE OUT FOR DINNER?: no
SAID "I LOVE YOU"?: no
WRITTEN A REAL LETTER: no
Talked TO AN EX?: no
WRITTEN IN A JOURNAL?: what am I doing right now?
HAD A SERIOUS TALK?: yes
MISSED SOMEONE?: everyday, dude
HUGGED SOMEONE?: yes
FOUGHT WITH YOUR PARENTS?: almost
FOUGHT WITH A FRIEND?: I don't know if I did, basta I did something that would definitely make him mad

Hmmm, I'd be doing more next time...it's nice